BTS: HYYH The Notes (Complete ENG)

Jungkook

11 April Year 22

In the end, it turned out how I wanted. I purposely ran into the thugs I met on the street and got beaten up to my heart's content. Since I laughed while they were hitting me, they called me a crazy bastard and hit me even more. I leaned against the shutter door and looked up at the sky. It was already night. There was nothing in the pitch-black sky. I saw one clump of leaf at a distance. It was lying on its side in the wind. It was like me. I felt like I was going to cry, so I forced myself to laugh.

I closed my eyes and saw the image of my stepfather clearing his throat. My stepbrother kicked me and laughed. My stepfather's relatives looked elsewhere or talked about meaningless things. They acted like I wasn't even there, like my existence didn't matter. In front of them, my mother was at a loss. I placed my hands on the floor and stood, but dust rose up and I coughed. It hurted as if I'd been stabbed in my solar plexus. I went to the roof of a construction site. The night city stretched out in terrible color. I climbed up on the railing and walked with both arms spread out, one leg lurched, and I almost lost my balance. I thought that I could die with just one step. If I died, it would all be over. Nobody would be sad without me.