BTS: HYYH The Notes (Complete ENG)

Namjoon

20 July Year 22

I lifted my head as I was flipping through magazine ads. On the other side of the table next to the window, a new person has been sitting there for the past few days. The thick book, large bag, and paper cup were the same, but it wasn't her. I looked back down at the magazine. I was reading the same page over and over for an hour. I could hardly understand the words my eyes skimmed through because of the thought that were filling my head. Why was I still here? I couldn't think an answer. Among people who were absorbed in their own worlds, I was carelessly reading the same page of a magazine. I felt impatient, as if something was supposed to start, but I knew nothing would happen.

I brought the magazine back and strolled between bookshelves. They were taller than I was, filled to the brim with books. Wind breeze came to an open window carried the scent of books and dust in the air. I reminisced my high school years. The books that I read with my friends in that classroom hideout smells exactly like this.

I wondered, had I grown out from the person who I was before? I couldn't bring myself to be positive. It could've been because everything seemed to be frozen back then. I moved to a different bookshelf and picked an old book I studied from high school. I had to start over. I had to give everything up one at a time.