BTS: HYYH The Notes (Complete ENG)

Taehyung

22 May Year 22

I was passing a pine forest when I saw hyung pick up the phone and started to lag behind. There were lots of times like those nowadays. He moved away, far enough that others couldn't hear, and answered the phone. I purposely slowed my steps and hid myself off toward the sea. Hyung didn't see me hide, so he passed by me. "Only a year younger than me. No, I don't really care. Anyway, I'm not going to take responsibility so just do whatever you think is best."

Something cold slid down my spine. It felt like the whole world had crumbled with a crash. It felt like floating alone in the middle of the ocean. It was terrible and frightening. I was miserable and insignificant. I was angry. I was so angry I couldn't hold it back. I wanted to cause a scene. I wanted to destroy something, to hit something, to wreck myself. I was always afraid. That my father's blood ran in my veins. I thought, maybe his violence was my inheritance. It seemed as if something was piercing my tightly-wound defenses.