22 May Year 22
"It's only a year difference. No, no one said that. I'm older, I know. But he is not a child anymore. What I'm saying is that he is old enough already to take care of himself. Alright. No, I'm not mad. I'm sorry."
I hung up and looked down at the floor. The warm sea breeze swept through the pine trees. My heart was bursting with anger. On the bottom half of sand and dirt, ants were going somewhere in line. In the physical and symbolic sense, I am much bigger than them. And I wonder where I am going and why I am doing this.
It's not that I don't love my parents. It's not that I wasn't worried about my younger sibling. I ignore it but because this is me, I can't do that.. So, what's wrong with struggling or being angry, or being frustrated like this?
I could see the back of my head as if I were stuck like that. It was Jungkook. Once Jungkook said this, "Can I be an adult like you, hyung?" I couldn't say anything then. I wasn't a good adult, or an adult even, I felt it was cruel to say that. To someone should have been given faith and attention. I could not say that because getting older, taller, and living a little more does not make you an adult. I hoped that Jungkook's future would be nicer than mine, but I couldn't promise that I could be helpful in the process. He approached and put his arm around my shoulder. Jungkook lifted his eyes and looked at me.
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BTS: HYYH The Notes (Complete ENG)
Ficção GeralHYYH The Notes are short diary entries of BTS members included in LY albums. They basically narrate the storyline, and how they connect with each other. Disclaimer: These translations are not mine. I just want to share them with you. Credits to the...
