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Hoseok

25 February Year 22

My entire world changed again after my nineteenth birthday. I was no longer a minor and couldn't stay at the orphanage anymore. I looked for my own place with the money I'd saved from working part-time jobs and the money I got from leaving the orphanage. I couldn't bring myself to look at Two Star Burger. I tried going around near Songju station but there wasn't much of a difference. In the end, all I could do was walk up the slope. It was a rooftop room, at the end of a dead-end street.

I dragged my almost empty suitcase up the iron stairs. I had spent more that ten years at the orphanage, but I didn't have much stuff. All I had to do was organize a few clothes and pairs of shoes then arrange the furniture I'd bought at the recycling center.

But moving is still moving, so by the time I finished it was already night. Even in february, there was sweat on my back. When I opened the screeching iron door, a cold late-winter wind blew in. I went out and leaned on the handrail. I looked down at Songju. I tried to find where the ophanage was. I followed the river along to the left, then to the left of the clover-shaped sign. Among all the neons and lights, I couldn't see the orphanage very well.

I lifted my head and looked at the rooftop room. It was small, barely one room. It was shabby and poorly kept up, hot as sauna in the summer and freezing in the winter. But it was the only place in the world that was mine. A place where I could be myself, a place where I can be foolishly afraid, or have hope when others would sneer at me. A place where I could laugh all I wanted and cry all I wanted.

"Let's do well!" I shouted towards the room. This place at the top of the city, nearly touching the sky, would be my home from now on.