"Jacquelyn, can I ask you something?" Shawn asked sitting on his bed.
"Yeah. Sure." I said turning to face him.
"Have you ever just felt completely alone? Even if you're surrounded by thousands of people, you feel alone?" He asked slowing looking up from his folded hands.
I wonder why he's asking. Probably because that's how he feels, jackass.
"Y-yeah." I said after a minute, my voice cracking.
I meant it too. I have "friends" but not friends. I'm alone most of my time, I don't do sports or any of that stuff.
"Why do you ask?" I added.
"It's just how I feel 99.99% of the time, honestly. Why do you feel like that? You have friends and family who love you." He said looking at me.
"They're not really friends, they're just people I pretend to be friends with because I am so alone and I think I need people around me to make me feel, less alone." I replied looking at my hands.
Shawn stood up and walked over to me. He didn't touch me, he just looked at me. I looked up from my hands to Shawns face. I never really looked at it. He had a lazy eye, his left one, and a scar, he had acne too, but he still looked perfect with all the flaws.
"Why now?" I asked.
"What do you mean?" He asked confused.
"Why now, to talk to me? To tell me all of this stuff. I've been fine all of my life up until this year, so why call me out at my worst?" I asked tears rolling down my cheeks.
"Because this is my worst, and I knew it was yours too. I thought maybe we could make it into something better, together. We both know what pain feels like, and I'm so fucking tired of being in pain, and I know damn well you are too. We're at our breaking points, and honestly I don't want to break, I don't want you to break without you knowing how I feel about you, because then, I'd regret never telling you. You'd never know how much you meant to me, and I live or die that way.." He replied crying.
"This is just so much, Shawn. It's just all being pilled on top of me. It's so sudden, I didn't even know your name until today." I said shaking my head.
"Jacquelyn." He wispered grabbing my hand.
"Shawn." I wispered back.
"it will be okay." He said kissing my temple.
"I have to go." I said
I tried not to make eye contact but when I reached his door I turned around to see him just standing there watching me. I walked back over to him and placed a kiss on his lips.
"We can do this, together." I wispered before walking back to the door and leaving.
I walked down the stairs to see Aaliyah and her Mom sitting on the couch watching TV.
"Leaving already?" His mom asked.
"Did he scare you off too?" Aaliyah asked.
"Uh, no I just don't feel very good, I just think I need some sleep." I explained.
"Oh, well I hope you feel better, and I hope we get to see more of you around." His mom said smiling.
I gave her a reassuring smile and walked out. I took out my headphones and turned on "Skyscraper" by Demi Lovato. It was half way through the song when it started to rain. I didn't run, I just kept walking and listening to music.
When I got home my mom was home sitting on the couch in her pajamas.
"Jack, are you okay?" She asked hurrying over to me.
