WhenILoveYa-ff:

WhenILoveYa-ff: Chapter 3

Honey

“Mom just give me MJ, I need to feed him!” I snap out of annoyance. The doctors are saying my complicated birth is why I’m feeling this way, but I just want it to stop. I can’t even enjoy being a mother because no one will allow me to try.

“Honey you still need to take it easy! I get it, you want to bond with your baby, but the doctors said its best that we bottle feed right now. I know postpartum depression is a scary thing, I had it with Rita, but that’s what we are here for!” my mom takes a seat in bed next to me and I feel myself about to cry again.

I lay back in bed pulling the covers up to my neck “Fine…..” I simply answer wiping my tears away “Just come get me when Ty gets here”

“Okay baby…” my mom kisses the side of my temple, and leaves the room with MJ sprawled out in her arms.

Since having him, I have probably been alone with MJ for one hour at the hospital. The doctors think it’s better for his sake that he’s not alone with me unless a caregiver is with us. That is my fucking child, how the hell do they think someone else caring for him is better! And Ty is supposed to have my back, but he’s siding with them. Bastard! He doesn’t even know how to care for a baby, how in the hell is he going to take my baby from me until I’m “better”. They just want to take my child from me, that it. My mom has her own child, what the hell she does she need with mine!

*phone buzzes*

Ty: I’m just getting off, I’m on the way. I’m getting MJ tonight, you want to come over? Mama E said she has to go out of town so I know you don’t want to be there alone.

Honey: Why can’t you just come see MJ and I here?

Ty: You know you can’t be with MJ alone, baby….

Ty: Honey it’s either over here, or you stay at home?

A tear hits the screen as I shut the phone back off. They can’t do this to me! Michael Jr. did not come from them, he came from me! I would never hurt my baby. They think they can do it without me, fine! I’m out of here!

I throw on some sweat pants, one of my old high school shirts, and some Jordan’s so I can prep to leave. I look over and see one of MJ’s toys and it smells just like him. I inhale in his scent, and it kills me that this is the only way to get close to him. I stuff the teddy bear in my back pocket, and stuff some cash in the front pocket.

*phone buzzes*

Ty: I need an answer?

I look down at my phone and slide it open to reply…

Honey: Fuck you Michael!

I’m glad I had taken the downstairs bedroom after I gave birth, so I was able to sneak out of the window, and jump over our fence. With a backpack on and $500 in my pockets, I made my way down the street with nowhere in particular to go….

All I ever wanted to do was take care of my child….

Dr. Rose (Amber)

I had just gotten done working out when Cameron calls me with an argument “NO! Don’t you tell me what I should and shouldn’t be doing, I’m your wife not your child Cameron!” I yell back into the phone as he scolds me like a child

*light knocks at the door*

Chris sticks his head in looking embarrassed “Sorry…bad timing? You said I could stop by?”