Insomnia - luke hemmings

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S U M M E R

When I woke up this morning, I couldn't help the smile that floated over my face. Christmas is here and Luke is wrapped up with my arms squeezing him closely. I take my hand from his chest and bring it to his cheek, stroking his scruff. "Luke," I whisper. "It's Christmas."

He moans from underneath me and buries his head into my neck. "Merry Christmas." He kisses the path from my neck to my jaw, kissing everywhere but my lips. I take matters into my own hands. Grabbing his face, I pull him to my lips and kiss him like there's no tomorrow. "Baby." He laughs, tilting his head away.

"What?" I pout playfully. "I'm just trying to love on my man."

Luke blushes and leaves a soft peck at the corner of my mouth. In this moment I realize that Luke has never done much to me sexually. Personally, I like that. I'm very indecisive, and if this all moves to quick, I know it'll go downhill. "Let's go downstairs, I'll make us some cinnamon rolls and we can listen to Christmas carols."

"I'd love that." I smile. Luke rolls out of bed and slides on some sweatpants over his boxers. I reach my hands out and he tugs me up out of bed. I re tie my hair up and take a look in the mirror before running down the stairs to meet Luke in the kitchen. He was already playing a radio station of Christmas tunes.

I sit down at the couch and open up snapchat. "Luke c'mere, I want a picture!"

My boy walks in with a stupid grin. He leans over the back of the couch and wraps his arms around my neck, placing his head on mine. The picture was cute. I was laughing and he was kissing the top of my head. He tilts my head back as I upload the photo and pecks my lips. So much affection.

Luke saunters back to the kitchen and I play around with my phone, texting a few family members, Katelyn, Benji, Mom, Dad, and Luke's friends wishing them a happy holiday. No one replies, all probably still asleep. Even though me and Luke could sleep with each other, we'd still only get a good six hours. More then what I used to get, and that's all that matters.

When I hear the oven go off I wonder back to the kitchen and help Luke put frosting on the cinnamon rolls. "Baby, look." I turn and frosting is wiped across my face with a phone in front of my eyes. I gasp and watch my boyfriend get thrown into a fit of laughter. He puts his phone away and leans down to me, kissing the frosting on my cheeks.

"You're an ass." I grumble, taking a paper towel and wiping the remaining white stuff off of my face.

"You love me." He laughs turning away with his food and walking to the couch. I look after him, only if he knew what I feel towards him. What if Luke doesn't feel the same and in a year he leaves me. College will come and we'll be out of each other's life. The wall that was slowly coming down is beginning to build back up. I don't know if I can handle heartbreak.

I decide I'm not hungry and join Luke in the living room. He's laying on the couch scrolling through his phone while lazily eating his breakfast, looking attractive as ever. I sit on the opposite end of the couch and just kind of live in the feeling of yet another untraditional holiday. Luke's looking at me and I can feel it but I don't turn into it, I just continue looking at the white walls and pictures of small Luke.

"Honey, what's wrong?" The clink of Luke's plate hitting the glass table tells be he's sitting up and concerned. Silent tears are running down my face and I hold back the sobs that threaten my chest. His hand holds my chin, I didn't even know that he got close. "Why are you crying."

The frown on his face makes me feel guilty. I hate this. "Nothing." I gulp, using the tip of my fingers to wipe underneath my eyes.

"No, tell me."

I sigh, and give into his comfort. "Luke I really think I'm falling in love with you. I've never gotten along with someone so well. It's just uneasy thinking that you might not feel the same way?" I tilt my head to the side. I'm confused I guess.

Luke stares into my searching eyes, catching everywhere I look. "Hey, I'm serious about us Summer." Thats all I needed to stop my tears and worries. "To be honest, I love you. I know I do. The way you've opened up and let me in... I love that about you. I love your knowledge and the fact we have small stuff in common."

I lean up and kiss him softly. "I love you too Luke. Thank you for not leaving me lonely like everyone else has."

"I'll never leave you."