Insomnia - luke hemmings

2.4

L U K E

For some reason I was pissed at Summer still. Even after getting a little sleep and some coffee in me, I couldn't help but be a bit mad at her. She made Crystal and Michael feel like they fucked up, when in all realness Summer hasn't moved on from her brothers death. It still hangs over her head like a sharp sword.

However, I should apologize for blowing up on her rather then helping her. Sometimes I just get so mad randomly and it's like I just can't control it. Her front door is unlocked, I step into the living room and run up the stairs to her open room. It's very colorful, purple and white with yellow in between.

Summers bed is empty so I wander into the connecting bathroom. My eyes widen at the image of the girl I love laid across the cold tile. There's a pill bottle on the counter of the sink. Taking it into my fingers I read over the prescription. Painkillers. I drop them like they're poison and look down to Summer. I grab her wrist and check for her pulse. It's still strong, she's breathing.

What the fuck did she do? I pick her up and groan at her wait. She's heavier then I thought but too light at the same time. I bring Summers sleeping body to the bed and help her out of her clothes. Bringing the jeans down her legs and the hoodie over her head, I take off my own shirt and slide it over her body, then tucking her into bed. I slide in behind her and wrap my arms around her torso.

I wonder if she tried to hurt herself. Was she really is so much pain that the drugs were the only way. I kiss the base of her neck, then the lobe of her ear. "Summer." I whispered her name intimately.

Her body twists and her groans slip past her lips. "Luke?"

"Mhm, wake up. We need to talk."

Summer sits up and looks around her room for a minute. "You undressed me?"

"Yeah you looked uncomfortable. Sorry, baby." She looks like she's given up as she shrugs and looks everywhere but me.

"I'm sorry for leaving the group last night. I guess Kai's death is still just too much for me."

I sit up and force her to face me. "I know and I get that. I'm sorry for yelling at you how I did. Yesterday I was just being grouchy. So I apologize."

Summer leans in and kisses me softly. When she pulls away she still seems lost though.

"Are we going to talk about how you took painkillers." I run a hand through my hair and widen my eyes at her a bit.

"Listen, I just needed the pain to stop. I wasn't trying to hurt myself or anything." She try's to shake off the subject.

"Your cry for help cannot be using medication that isn't prescribed for you. Don't rely on it." I lay back down and bring her with me. We face each other and I know that this girl is everything I need, but maybe she has real issues I can't solve.

"I know, it won't happen again. I swear." She pouts at me. I choose to believe her, because as much as aj think there is a real issue I just want her to be here safe with me. Keep our secrets and issues to ourselves.