Perfect// luke hemmings

-Chapter Eighty four-

-Chapter Eighty four-

ISABELLE POV

I was tired from all that walking and Ashton found a tweet that had a full video of the marriage proposal. It was adorable, Caitlin looked so pretty. I want to see the kids, they're probably adorable.

We've been trying for a baby, but I just don't think it's happening. I mean, I'm kinda disappointed I made an opponent today. I already went they told me it's very rare for me to have a kid.

How can you say it so bluntly? I don't know. He's going to dump me, we've been together for so long and now five second of summer is over, well has been and now I can't give him what he wants? He's going to dump me once he finds this out.

We got our own apartment and every night we'd have sex. He'd make it perfect and now that I can't have a child, will he leave me? Oh of course he will! My subconscious hates.

I sit against the bathroom door, I hate life. I'm supposed to be healthy, I'm supposed to be able to produce. Before I know it I'm swallowing painkillers.

I start to feel dizzy I fall to the floor with a thud "belle." The voice fades as I doze off.

ASHTON POV

"Belle," I shout where is she? I jog up the stairs but I don't see her in the bedroom. There is a note 'doctors opponent at 3:30 :) xoxo be home by 5:00' I check my phone, it's 6:30 now. "Isabelle this isn't funny!" I shout, where the fuck is she.

The bathroom light is on, maybe she's planning a shower "baby open up." I slap the door but I hear nothing, not even the water running. I open it but there's something against it.

I push harder, finally, I spot a motionless Isabelle on the floor, next to an empty pill bottle. She still has a pulse, oh thank goodness. I stick my fingers down her throat and I hear her gag.

I pull her hair into a ponytail, as she vomited on the floor. Why would she do this? do I not show her how much I love her already? She finally stops, I get a washcloth, and place it in cold water.

I wash her mouth as tears fall down her cheek "why didn't you let me die," she sobs and I pull her into me as her head leans into my shoulder "because I love you." I tell her rubbing her back.

"How can you love someone who can't give you what you want!" She shouts while tears stream faster down, she shoves me away. What is she talking about?

"What did the doctor say." I demand and she gulps "he said it was rare for me to get pregnant .Oh, so it was a he, not time to get jealous ash.

"Okay, then we will adopt," I tell her hoping to make her a little happy. It just makes it worst "I don't want to Ashton I want one of our own, but I can't. I'll just be alone, okay? I'll die alone." She tells me staring blankly at the floor.

I sit next to her, "I'm not leaving you alone, I never will." I tell her rubbing her knuckles she looks up at me "but I can't give you what you want." She pouts and I smile as I rub my thumb across her lips.

"You're all I need," I tell her, "we will try and try, just because it's rare doesn't mean impossible" I smirk.

-Just a little more of Ashton and belle-