Summer Breeze

Chapter 15~ You're Worth It

I never saw this coming. Ammon's movements were so fast. With his lips pressed against mine and one hand on my cheek I melted at his touch. "Is this really happening?" I mentally ask myself. I couldn't believe it. As I kissed him back I sear sparks were really flying. When our lips parted, his hand didn't leave my cheek as our foreheads were touching. "I'm sorry" he whispers. "Shhh" you tell him, "Just... don't say anything". "Do you mean don't say anything in this moment? Or not to say anything about this moment." My subconscious interrogated me. I latch onto Ammons neck in hope to push those thoughts aside. Seeming startled at first Ammon stayed rigid, but soon wrapped his arms around my waist. Nothing had ever felt so right.

"Ammon I-" I started before he cut me off. "I know what your going to say now." We sat straight and he took my hand. " I know that what I am doing is totally wrong; trying to get the girl my best friend is crushing on. But truth is, and I know I've told you but I'd tell you a thousand times. Truth is I'm in love with you, Tammy. And I don't see that changing soon.. I'm not asking you to choose me over Brady, but I need you." he took a deep breath. I could tell that he had been holding all this weight on his shoulders and knew how it must have felt to finally get it off. "Just like when you threw away your last razor" the thought creeping into my mind. "I know how it is to have something hold you down, Ammon." I finally was able to get out in a whisper, not being sure if he heard me or not.

Ammon looked at his phone and sighed. "It's getting late, I should uh, probably go." he said to me looking me in the eyes. "Um okay.." I say back, not wanting him to leave but needing time to think about my crazy life that came all of the sudden. I stood up, and Ammon walked me down the hallway to my room. "Thank you" he said, giving me another hug. " I didn't do anything" I said into his jacket.  I let go and walked into my room as he walked towards the stairs. "Wait, Tammy!" he called out just as I was about to close the door. "I forgot to ask you something. Erm- I'm uh having a party for my birthday Thursday night and I wanted to invite you, I mean if you want to come you don't have to. " Ammon I would love to come, why would you think that I wouldn't?" I say in return. "I don't know.." he said sheepishly. I ran over and gave him another hug and told him that it would be an honor to go. 

"Man. Today was eventful" I think to myself getting inside my room. It was strange, having all this attention. Back in school I was the one who was always there, but never noticed. But now two beautiful guys wanted my attention, and only mine. These thoughts were rushing around my mind, making it hard to sleep. I didn't want to put on Beyond 5 because that would only make me think about Ammon and this whole situation. I decide to scroll through Twitter until I fall asleep. That is until I came across a tweet by the one and only.

@AmmonTui12: "I never knew loving someone could be so problematic. It was mentally and emotionally exhausting. And it was also the best feeling. -  wonderwall123"

"Great." I thought to myself. "All those poor girls who's hearts are breaking because of one simple tweet." That's when it dawned on me that I used to be one of those girls, and things would never be the same again.

*Ammons Point of View*

I walked down the stairs and towards my car. "Tonight ended up better than I had planned" I thought. "Except for the kissing part" my mind added on. Kissing Tammy was like being awake on the fourth of July. Sparks were everywhere and it felt absolutely amazing. That is until I remembered what I had seen at sunset. Tammy was kissing Brady as I pulled up to the beach, just like Tammy had asked me to. Well, she didn't exactly tell me to come but she was asking why I wasn't there. "I shouldn't have waited so long to go, I should have left as soon as I got her text." I say out loud scolding myself. I know that I will never get that image out of my head, and that's why I came here tonight. I needed to picture Tammy differently than locking lips with my bro, but did I end up making it worse?

I sat in my car not doing anything, not wanting to go home yet. I got onto twitter and the first thing that was on my time line was some love quote from a One Direction fan fiction. "How the heck did that end up on my page?" I wonder, until I read the quote further. It was perfect, so I decided to tweet it. I knew that I would be getting crap from management and a ton of notifications from my fans asking who, what, why, when and how, but I just hoped that the right fan would see it.

After I had had enough of twitter, I scrolled through Instagram, looking at all the creative hash tags that the Beyonders came up with. That's when I remembered that I had forgotten to tell Tammy about the private concert Beyond 5 was putting on. "I'll invite her tomorrow" I think, figuring I shouldn't bother her again tonight. I turned on the car and just listened to the music, not driving anywhere yet.

She’s someone else’s angel

It may sound stupid that I'm wanting you back

But I'm wanting you back, girl

And now I’m standing in the dark, dark, oh Dark, dark

"Wow ok" I thought. Tammy wasn't exactly mine, but the message of that song described my situation perfectly nonetheless. I had been literally standing in the dark watching Tammy kiss another guy. I shook the image from my mind and drove home.

I went directly to my room and layed on my bed. I couldn't believe that I kissed her. "I bet she couldn't believe it either.." I say out loud. "What a mess I've created now" Before going to bed I scrolled through Instagram one more time. I liked a few pictures before I came across one that really got my attention. It was from Tammy's fan account. It was a screen shot of my tweet with the caption of "We will fall in love for the right reasons, to the right person. When that time comes, that love will be worth the long wait, the tears and the pain. Right then we will forget we ever cried."

"You're worth it Tammy." I say putting my phone down and falling asleep.

Sorry for the slow update! but oh my gosh thank you for over 400 reads I can't believe it! that's amazing! so a couple of things. The quote Ammon uses is from one of my favorite One Direction fan fics Baby Doll. Wonderwall123 is the user who wrote it. I didn't know how else to quote it haha. The song Ammon is listening to is Standing in the Dark by Lawson. I love this song and this group so check them out:) Thank you again!! I love you all:)

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