"Is that you?" - Cai Xukun FF

Chapter 16

Nana's POV

"Hi, mom," I say as I stand in front of my mother's grave.

I've never liked going to the cemetery. It's a really sad place. Even the most heartless person would get touched looking at the grave of small children that were hit by a car. Not to mention this creepy aura around here. But today is different. I feel...empty.

I haven't been here since I was little. It's quite strange taking into consideration that it's the sister of my...aunt. Now that I think about it...I know why they used to go here when I couldn't. Because of the date of death.

22.10.2001

The day of my birth.

When I was little I didn't pay much attention to it, but when I started to get older my 'parents' were probably afraid that I was going to suspect something or at least feel bad. It's hard to imagine...when you were coming to this world, someone else was leaving it. Someone that was supposed to be close to you. Someone considered as your closest family.

"I'm sorry I haven't been coming often...but I promise it'll change. I'm also sorry that I've been calling you my aunt when I was supposed to call you, mom. I'm so sorry that I didn't have a chance to meet you. It's all so crazy," I laugh bitterly shaking my head as I feel the tears running down my cheeks. "I'm also sorry that I didn't come to school yesterday and today. What should I do? How am I gonna face your sister now?" I sniff and look down at the notebook in my hand.

"I don't know if I can read your diary or not...it was your personal stuff after all...but supposedly you left it for me. I think I'll be just waiting at your sign..." I sigh deeply and stare at the grave next to my mother's...it was my grandmother's that passed away three years ago.

"You know mom...I don't know you in person, but grandmother told me about you. From what I heard, you were quite rebellious and were the total opposite of my mom...I mean my aunt. Sorry...I'm still not used to all of this," I sigh again trying to hold back another wave of tears. "Grandma said that you were always following your heart. That you were confident. And that I'm really similar to you but I just didn't find the courage in me. Now that I'm telling you this I feel stupid that I didn't realise it earlier...all this time grandma was giving me hints...you were so smart, grandma."

"Yes, she was," says the voice behind me and I turn around.

"Zhengting..." I mutter out of surprise. I want to be mad and yell at him, but I can't. I can't even say anything because of the lump in my throat. I'm supposed to be angry and sad but I'm relieved and quite happy.

"Nana...can we please talk?" he asks and I nod my head in agreement.

We sit on the nearby bench and I stay quite letting him do the talking.

"I'm sorry, Nana. I know sorry isn't enough...I was deceiving you all this time. I knew everything because I was already five years old when you were born. And I knew that you weren't my parents daughter. I was a clever child. But they told me to treat you like a sister and not to tell anyone about aunt Mei. So I did as they said...but I think you've figured that out already," he starts and chuckles bitterly at his words.

"Then Justin appeared and he just grew with you. He was clueless about your real identity. Believe me or not I wanted to tell you the truth earlier, but parents didn't want it. They were afraid of your reaction. Your father...we don't know who he is. We just know that he ran away when he found out about you. Also our moms weren't on a good terms back then. Because my mom was a hard-working person while yours was a dreamer. I think she just didn't want you to become like this...but it didn't work. Because look at you...you could be even a scientist if you wanted to...but you decided to chase your dreams...and this diary...she left it for you to read. So don't hesitate to open it," he explains everything and I listen to every word.