"Is that you?" - Cai Xukun FF

Chapter 25

Nana's POV

I want my child to make mistakes, learn from them and make her dream come true. I want her to always be herself and she won't be able if I get rid of her. But maybe there's a chance I'll survive but even if I won't...I'll be by her side always.

If something bad will happen...Yue will take her of her. Maybe my child will get along with her child. Xukun is such a good kid. He's turning three this year so that means he'll be three years older then my little daughter. I mean doctor didn't say that it'd be a girl, but I have a feeling it'll be a girl. A beautiful girl with a beautiful heart. I don't know what name will be good...maybe Nana. It sounds so nice and cheery.

My family doesn't know yet. I'm afraid of they reaction and I'm afraid that they take her away and make her a successful robot. I don't want her to live closed in someone else's dream like I used to live. I want her to be free and independent.

Good thing that Yue supports me in my decision. She also secretly hope that our kids will be together in the future. I'm sure Nana will fall for Xukun. He's such a sweet kid and I'm sure he'll be a great gentleman in the future.

That's all for today, goodnight Diary...

I close the old book and quickly wipe away the tears that falls nonstop from my eyes. I want to stop but my body doesn't listen. I get frustrated as I can't get rid of the waves that run down my cheeks. I don't sob. I don't scream. I don't even cry. It's just the tears.

And my heart beating fast. My mind mixed with feeling of disbelief, sadness and anger.

Is this possible? Is it this Xukun I know, is it his mother?

The name is the same. In the diary was written that he doesn't know he's father and that's a really complicated story, because it was his mother who run away after she found out about the pregnancy. And the date...

I take the book in my hands once more and try to find a certain page when that kid's birthday are mentioned.

It's this.

I look at the date.

2.08.1999

Dear Diary,

Today, Yue's little son celebrated his first birthday.

The Xukun I know was born...2 August 1998.

The date is the same.

I open the diary on the first page. The one with the photo. I examine closely the face of my mother's best friends.

That's why it looked so familiar...how come I haven't realised it earlier?

It all is so unbelievable. Her eyes and lips are exactly the same. I would say that it's a coincidence. But I don't believe in coincidence. It's all against my beliefs.

I just need to accept the truth.

I slowly close the diary and put it into my pink bag. Suddenly in front of my eyes appears a white material. A tissue?

I travel up from the hand to the face of the person that's holding the wipe. Xukun.

Does he know? Does he know who I really am? If not...am I supposed to tell him. But no, that's not a big deal for him probably. Why would he care about it? He doesn't have to do much with it. He was only three when my mom died. He doesn't remember her anyway.