the period project

rant sixty-two: period diaries

@cartoonized 

it's the 2nd day of my period and i currently feel normal. i woke up early, go to the bathroom and saw blood on my pads (just like the usual, nothings changed). i'm so happy that i don't have cramps and it feels just like a normal day, but the thing i hate the most is that i have to shower in a partly boiled water, and i was like, "wtf why do i have to suffer like this?" but after the day, i realized that i have to do that to prevent cramps. and i was kinda happy that my mom told that to me. this day feels normal, though i have to wear and change pads every time it's full like i'm fucking wearing a diaper. i may not have cramps but i become moody every time i have a period. it's like omg. why do i switch moods eventually. hahaha and i can't stop laughing from myself and later on, i'd be kinda teary or something like that. and sometimes, it's like i have a baby inside of me because i eat too much or i feel like i have this kinda thing for this food, something like that and i won't be okay if i don't get what i want. and after 5 days, when my period is gone, and when i recall my face looks like when i have a period is like, gosh, i look ugly fat old lady who have so many things carrying inside. hahaha so funny of me.