My Handsome Adventure

chapter 29

Joan's POV

Three days!! It's been three damn days since he has been gone. No calls, no messages, nothing. It's like he never even existed.

If this is how love feels, I wanna get out of it. I don't wanna feel it. It just makes me more desperate. I never wanted to feel any kind of emotions. But he made me feel, without even realizing, he made me feel beautiful things. Beautiful things including falling for him. But now he's gone. He left me behind. And I don't know what to do. Because  he was my fucking life! The moment he left, my life left me too. Now, I'm just a body with no soul. Without him, I'm just another damn useless body.

"Hey kiddo. Can I come in?" Dad's voice brings me out of my thoughts.

"Yeah."

He walks over to my bed and sits next to me flashing a smile.

"You wanna tell me what's happening?" He inquires.

"Nope." I reply.

"Is there something I can do to help?" He tries to get me talking.

"Nope."

"Are you gonna come down for breakfast?"

"Nope."

He sighs. "Look kiddo. I don't know what's bothering you. But whatever it is, you can't keep it to yourself. The more you hide, the more it hurts."

I don't respond.
He gets up from the bed looking defeated. I hate to see him like this. But I hate my situation even more.

"Dad?" I call out as he reaches the door.

"Ya kiddo." He turns to look at me.

"What would you do if a person you love the most disappears all of a sudden, leaving no clue."

He smiles on hearing my question." I would wander the whole world looking for that person."

"What if you never find them?" I ask further.

"If I never find my loved one, then no one will ever find me. It might sound crazy, but take it from a guy who has been living his whole life with his love." He leaves the room, but his words never leave my mind.

I've gotta find my love.