If Not Now, When? // Book 1

Chapter 31: Mar 29

Chapter 31: March 29

Nanna and Pop had just dropped me home after sorting out the inheritance thing. I don't know what to call it, since It's not exactly a will... Anyway! Back on topic. I had accidentally left my phone on the kitchen bench. I came back to get a glass of water and picked up my phone on the way through. I had three voicemails. One from a number which I recognised as Mrs. Trulli's, and the other two from Sheldon. I checked Sheldon's first.

~ Michaela. I need to talk to you before mum does. Please call me back as soon as you can. ~

I listened to the next one, this time he was crying.

~ Please. Call me. I need you to call me. Please. ~

My phone rung before I got a chance to check out his mum's voicemail. It was Sheldon again. I answered.

~ Oh, thank god, you picked up this time. ~

"I was about to call you back. Are you okay?"

~ My mum wants us to break up. ~

"Why would she call me, though?"

~ I refused to call you and break up, so she called you herself. ~

"Why would she want us to break up, though?"

~ She thinks you're not good enough and that you're not worth my time. ~

"A-are you going to break up with me?"

~ Tengo que. Lo siento. ~

I promptly hung up, and sat in silence.

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I woke up. It felt strange not waking up to Sheldon next to me. Although, Livia slept in my room last night and she could hear me crying.

"What's wrong, Micky?"

"It was just a dream..."

"Are you okay?"

"I-i-it.. felt... so... real!" I screamed. Tears ran down my face, I was hyperventilating.

"No, it wasn't real! Micky, calm down, don't cry. Tell me what happened."

I tried to talk through sobs, barely understandable. "S-Sheldon had... t-to break up with me... and I don't know what I did that made his mum think that about me."

"Think what about you?"

"And that's why- that's why he left yesterday. To get away from me."

"Micky, no. He loves you. It's okay. His mother needed him home."

No. It was all a lie!

He doesn't.

Break up with him before he does.

Do it.

No! Don't make me.

I love him.

Do it!

No!

The voices yelled at me. I wanted them to stop so badly. I nearly pulled my hair out as I felt myself slowly going insane. But I had to break up with him. Before he breaks up with me.

"Livia. I'm going to break up with Sheldon."

"What? No, don't do that! You two are perfect for each other! Why would you do that?" She started crying.

"I don't want to break up with him, Livia, but I have to. The voices tell me to, and besides, he's getting hurt, and I don't want him to get hurt. I just want to get him out of the picture so I can deal with this myself. I need to break up with him before he breaks up with me, okay?"