I wanna cry but I can't. The reason I wanna cry is because I'm wearing makeup. The full reason is because my girlfriend HATES it. I posted a picture of myself on my insta and she replies "you don't need makeup 😑😔😕😞". I said I'm sorry I just wanted to feel girly since I'm wearing a skirt. Then she goes on to say that she's depressed that I have it on and she wants me to take it off. I tell her no. Then she said that when I wear makeup it makes her feel depressed. Then she says that she's done talking to me. I told her that she's going to talk to me. We don't have to talk about the subject but please still talk to me. She said no she's done talking. It literally made me so triggered that I wanted to cry. But I can't because then I'll mess up my makeup. But it shouldn't even matter because I want to take it off so that she'll talk to me again. I would do anything to keep her happy. ANYTHING. Even if it meant I get hurt in the process, I'd do it. Because that's just who I am. I'm a people pleaser. But also because I love to see her smile. It's so cute. I love her slightly crooked teeth. Her thin pink lips. Her peircings. She's so adorable. So I guess I'll take it off. (A/N: my insta, if you want to follow me is 69demon_spawn69.)
