Desperation of a Broken Heart (COMPLETED)

CHAPTER 4

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Sacrifices not necessarily mean giving up your life; it is just your way of dealing with some circumstances happen in unexpected days. Some sacrifices might be helpful but some made the situation worsen so better choose what sacrifices you'll make.

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"I'm sorry son but Shannon refused on our condition, baka naman pwedeng kalimutan mo na ang kasal na iyon?" Dad told. It's been 4 days since Shannon talked to me about that matter and this thing is exactly what I expected.

"Don't worry Dad, I know she'll refuse. Let's just forget it." Nakita ko naman ang ngiti sa mga mata ni Dad ng sabihin ko iyon. Alam kong ayaw niyang gipitin si Tito Seb ng dahil lang dun.

"Why just pursue her personally?" Dad suggested. That's really a NO NO for me. There's no way for me to do that, I just need her, I wanted to get her and after I get what I want, I will leave her with the same pain she caused me.

"That's a good idea Dad but I doubt she'll like it." I response with a fake smile, kung ano man ang meron sa'min dalawa ni Shannon ay kami lang ang dapat na mamagitan dun. Family is always excluded in it but if necessarily.....who would have known what could I do.

"Hahaha....kailan ka pa nawalan ng confidence son........blah.......blah..." Patuloy lang si Papa sa mga sinasabi niya pero wala na roon ang atensyon ko. I'm currently thinking about my next step para makuha ko si Shannon. And I will make sure that she'll the first one to surrender herself in my trap.

"What do you think son?" Dad asked, I didn't know what his talking about since I was not listening in the first place. Kanina pa siya nagkwekwento ng kung ano-ano pero wala ni isa sa mga iyon ang pumasok sa isip ko.

"I'm sorry Dad, I got spaced out ano nga po ulit ang sinasabi niyo?"

"Well, I'm thinking if we could invest to Seb's company, it's kind of small one but at least we could give it a try?" And that hits my mind. A great idea pops in. Napangisi nalang ako ng maisip kung ano ba ang dapat kong gawin and this would be the only thing I could do to get her.

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"It's your fault...." Singhal niya sakin habang tumutulo ang luha nito. He's in pain and I see it clearly in my eyes, this is the first time na nakita ko siyang umiyak. Is it really my fault? Is it wrong to do the right thing?

"Y-you don't u-understand J-Johann, it's not what you think." I tried to explain my side pero hindi niya ko binigyan ng pagkakataon.

"What I understand is that she left me because of you!" Kasalanan ko ba talaga ang nangyari? All I wanted is to protect him from her anong mali kung protektahan ko ang taong mahal ko laban sa mga taong kagaya niya.

"J-johann..." I tried to reach out for his hand pero lumayo lang siya at tumalikod pero bago pa ito makaalis ay nagbitaw pa siya ng mga salita na hindi ko kayang makalimutan.

"I don't want to see you ever again. I wish this would be the last." he said it as he left me dumfounded.

Krriiiiingg.....

Napabalikwas ako kasabay ng pagtingin ko sa orasan para malaman kung anong oras na. Nang makita kong 4:30 na ng madaling araw ay tumayo na rin ako at pinatay ko na ang alarm. Nagising kasi ako ng maaga o mas tamang bang sabihin na hindi talaga ako nakatulog ng maayos dahil sa mga bumabagabag sa isip ko, hindi ko alam kung bakit bumabalik na naman sa ala-ala ko ang mga bagay na iyon, ilang taon ko ng pilit kinalimutan ang pangyayaring yun pero bigla bigla nalang bumalik kagaya ng pagbabalik niya sa buhay ko.