The Little Unexpected Things

Baby Cries

Bella's P.O.V

To say I was shocked was coming up very, very short. Why? Because shockingly enough, those words that flew out of his mouth gave me hope. Hope for us. How long had I gone wondering what would it be like if he and I ever were ever together, long before we found out we were going to have Ella. Not because I was curious, but because a part of me, hidden deep down inside me knew my feelings for Edward were beyond friendship. It was layers on top of layers.

He dated other women which made me think he never thought of me that way. Then... Jacob came along and I fell in love with him. He was a distraction from Edward, I now realize that. Had I always been aware of my feelings for Edward? No, never. But when I got pregnant it was like that wall I had put up was finally destroyed. Like those parts of me that knew what we had was just more than friendship were screaming it at me. I was just too deaf to even listen.

And to say that I was shocked when he dropped it on me last night was nowhere close to it. He said and reassured me there was no other person he wanted than me... and then... before I could even convince my brain to responde... he smiles at me, gets up and asks me what I want for dinner. Like, what the actual fuck? I tried bringing it up again but he wouldn't listen. He'd pretend he didn't hear me and smile at me and ask me if I was feeling okay.

Did I dream it?

"Hello! Earth to Bella!" Alice snaps her fingers in my face, snapping me out of my trance. "You okay, Bella? You've been in deep thought all afternoon."

"Edward told me he loved me."

Why the hell would say that?!

"WHAT?"

"Alice!" I hissed. "Ella is sleeping."

"But you just-"

"Sh!"

"But-"

"SH!"

"How? Why? What happened?" She whispered and lean closer over her dinning table.

"We went to Ella's appointment yesterday and we met this woman and her boy. Apparently she's not on good terms with the father. Alice, you should have seen the way she spoke about him and in front of her child. It scared me shitless that something like that could happen between me and Edward. I watch him with Ella and I realize he's so over the moon, in love with her. It scares me she'd lose that... that I'd lose him."

"Bella?"

I look at Alice. "Yes?"

"Do you have feelings for Edward?"

The question, unexpectedly, made me laugh. "If I have feelings for Edward? Please, he's the father of my child, my best friend ever since I can remember and I'm terrified of losing him... and you're asking me if I have feelings for him?" is it that obvious? "Yes..."

Alice squeals, earning a slap from me. "Sorry," she whispers. "But this is so exciting. I mean, you guys are going to be a family with Ella. It's all he ever wanted."

My eyes widen. "You knew?"

Alice scoffs. "Bella, even the Queen of Sluts knew, why do you think she hated you so much? Edward has been head over heels in love with you ever since you guys met. He was just scared that you wouldn't take him and then... gosh are the two of you stupid. You guys live together, you share the same bed... you have a child together, what more do you need?"

"But what if... what if it doesn't work out?"

"We never start a relationship thinking it's going to end in heartbreak. I'm not saying you should start off as husband and wife. It's called dating. You can start dating and if you think it'll work out, go for it. If not, then things shall remain the way they were."