Clandestine (Calum Hood)

38. Drunk

Hey guys, sorry it's been so long.

I just kind of went through a little breakup, and it made me lose motivation for writing.

it was hard to write about a cute relationship and love when you're getting over one.

And not to be dramatic, but besides being in love with boy bands, I've seriously never believed in love. I've never experienced it and have only seen it go bad, so when I write about love in this story I only think about the love I have for 5sos.

But I've giving myself therapy. Which is watching 5sos interviews and listening to their music and now I'm back to Calum being the only man in my life who I love so much.

and the help of Ed Sheerans new album.

So motivations back. Please enjoy and thank you all for being the best fam ever.

also. There's stuff I wanted to add and had ideas for but now I have writers block and I think in a couple chapters the story will be ending. it made me emotional just typing that.

you guys have all been so nice to me, with the prom thing, and just supporting me. When I finish the story I'm going to miss you all so much. your comments are hilarious and you guys are so amazing with advice. I love all of you.

Amelias Pov

*One week later*

The sun was setting and I was cleaning the house when I heard my front door close. I set the rag on the kitchen counter. "Hello?" I hollered.

"Hey it's me!" Retaj walked in the kitchen.

"Oh hey. What's up?" I asked while continuing to wipe the counter down.

"Oh nothing. I feel like I haven't seen you in a while. Can't stay long though, I have plans with Ashton."

"Oh yeah, I mean it's just been a few days. I've just been doing a lot of things that I haven't gotten to do all summer, with all that happened.."

"So you were writing? Playing the piano? Designing clothes?"

I laughed. "All of the above."

"Wow that's really great! You're good at that stuff."

"Thanks."

She sighed. "Is something wrong? You seem down, and you're cleaning."

"Cant get passed you can I?"

She shook her head. "Nope."

"Its Calum. I don't know. We had such a fun time together last weekend, and then.. I haven't seen him since. He's been so short with me, and cranky. I.. I think he's going to break up with me."

She set her big purse down on the wet counter. "What? No! Amelia there's no way. He loves you, he really loves you."

"I guess.. but why won't he talk to me or see me?" Just as I finished my phone started ringing.

I looked at it in shock.

"Is that Calum?" Retaj asked.

"No.. it's my - my.. god I don't even know what I'm suppose to call her."

"Oh .. you're 'mom'?"

I nodded.

"Well why don't you answer? Don't they get back in a couple weeks. what are you going to do then?"

"I don't know.. I honestly didn't even think about it. I completely forgot about my fake family. I keep thinking this is my house and I'm on my own."

"Well it seems that way." 

"Yeah. I guess I'll just deal with it when they get here. Right now I want to focus on Calum."

"Why don't you just go see him?"

"I don't want to seem like a clingy obsessive girlfriend."

"You won't be. Just tell him you need to talk and set things straight. See what's going on."

"Yeah.. you're right. Im gonna take a shower and head over."

"Alright, I'm going to see Ashton. See Ya."

"Call you later."

I pulled up to Calums and only his car was there. I went to the front door and knocked. I waited about four minutes and remembered all the times he went into my house without knocking. Even while I was taking a bath.

I walked in and looked around. "Calum? Calum?" I heard loud music above me.

I walked upstairs. And saw his bedroom door opened a crack.

I slowly walked up the it and opened the door.

"Calum?" There were bottles everywhere. His room looked like a tornado that went threw a bar. "What the hell Calum!"

He was on his floor on his back sprawled out in boxer shorts with a drink in his hand. His face looked pained.

I went to shut the music down and then sat on the floor next to him. "Calum what the hell is going on? Is this why you haven't been talking to me? Are you some kind of drunk?"

He just took a gulp from his drink.

"Calum." I whispered, hurt.

He sat up slowly and groaned. he was facing me. "What do you want Amelia?"

"Wh- are you- are you fucking serious?"

He just chuckled. "So what I'm drinking. Get over it."

"You know what you can get over? Us." Without my approval my hand suddenly slapped him hard across the face. I stood up and walked out of his room and slammed the door shut.

I heard a loud noise of glass shattering and I flinched. Calum groaned loud.

"Damnit!" I hissed. I went back in there and saw Calum in a ball, curled up, with glass around him. "Calum get up." I carefully walked to him and slowly got him up. "Careful." I laid him in his bed. "Stay. " I demanded.

I quickly went downstairs and got a broom and trash bag.

I went.back to his room and started carefully sweeping up the mess. And.I was so upset and angry before I knew.it I was cleaning his room.

"Amelia.." Calum whispered.

I dropped the bag and turned to face him. "Yeah?"

"I'm sorry. God I am so sorry." he started crying.

Not just tears. He was making the crying noise. I was so shocked. I was scared. "Calum oh my god." I sat next to him on the bed and kept pushing his hair back. "Its okay, it's okay. You're just drunk it's fine."

"I've ignored you for weeks.."

"One week but yeah, it's fine. Just.. Calum obviously something's wrong. Why couldn't you just.. tell me, I'm so hurt. How long were you going to avoid me?"

"I'm sorry.. I'm.so stressed.. my dad.."

"Sh sh, it's okay.. it's okay."

"My dad, he's leaving me with all his business stuff. I have to take care of it, I have to learn everything, I have to be great at it, I have to do all these things that.. I don't want to do."

"Oh Calum, just tell him that's not what you want,  he'll understand."

"No. He won't. He'll be so ashamed of me. He'll hate me."

I laid down next to him and kissed his chest. "No he won't Calum, you can't do something you don't want to do. Listen just.. let's just, get some sleep, and we'll talk about this tomorrow, okay?"

"I love you, so damn much. I would die if you weren't with me Amelia you have no idea how much I care about you."

"I do know, because I feel the same way." I gave him a soft kiss, "I love you too."