❝Can you hear my heart breaking inside my chest? Can you hear my screams? Because I don't think you can, and that scares me even more, because what if no one saves me?❞
ORDER of the PHOENIX,
DEATHLY HALLOWS
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𝖈𝖍𝖆𝖕𝖙𝖊𝖗 𝖋𝖎𝖛𝖊 pretty odd (abandonment)
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PART OF MAIA wondered who she was more like out of her parents. If she had gotten her hair from her mother or father, her smarts and love for reading from them or had Nadia just ingrained it into her, and her eye color. She wondered who gave her the crooked smile she always dawned and who passed on their need to bite their lip when they were nervous.
She wondered if they would even like her name, since obviously it wasn't the one she was born with. She wondered if her true birth name was better and had more meaning to them than the one that Remelda had given her on the fly. And she wondered who they truly were as people.
Remelda had said they were bad people and that's why she was keeping it a secret, it would only hurt them if they knew the truth, but Remelda had also kept this information from them. She couldn't trust Remelda or Nadia or anyone else in her family. Well, not her family. The only person in her family that she knew about was Leo, but even then she didn't know his birth name either.
And Leo was boring. He was a muggle and he liked muggle things and he didn't care about her magic. He was a disappointment to their true family and he was the reason they were going to be killed by their father. Yes, that was terrible, but if he didn't exist she would still know her birth parents...
No, that was a terrible thought. Apparently, the life she had now was much better than the one she would have had with them. The pressure, the expectations...they would have been so different and worse. Really, her father was willing to kill them and start over because Leo didn't show any signs of magic.
So it was better. Maybe. Probably. But that didn't mean she still didn't wonder about who they were and what she inherited from them. She knew that she would never know; there was no way she would ever actually talk to her father and her mother was dead – the only thing she could think of was using an Ouija board but everyone knew that you never talked to the person you actually wanted to. Plus, Maia had a fear of demons and she didn't want to invite them into her life.
If ghosts existed – and could truly manifest in their world – demons weren't far-fetched and she wasn't taking any chances. Some days she already felt haunted enough and she really didn't need to be actually possessed or anything.
And she wondered if they liked Potions, because Maia certainly did not. It just wasn't the class for her and Snape didn't make it any better. Snape didn't mind Ravenclaws, per say, he treated them much better than Gryffindors (who were the self-proclaimed 'mortal enemies' to all Slytherins) and Hufflepuffs (who Maia thought he viewed as weak), but that didn't mean he treated them well.
It was clear to see who he favored the most and she knew that it would never be her because some people put too much into the house system when really all it did was designate where they would sleep and their values. And none of the houses' values were bad, per say, it was just how people viewed the values were bad.
