If You Feel My Love

Chapter Thirty-Four: Fixing Broken Bonds

Analisa felt Fernando cuddle closer to her body, the day before events had taken its toll on him; she felt his grip tighten as he pulled her closer, as if he feared that someone would come and take her.

“You okay?” Analisa asked as she looked at her husband, she licked her lips as she felt him nod his head; his eyes remained closed as he buried his head into her neck, she knew that he wasn’t ready to face the world yet but the twins were getting restless.

“Are you okay?” Fernando asked as he pulled back slightly, his eyes traced the bruising on her neck, he swallowed as he watched her for a moment before she kissed him; he moaned softly as he cupped her face, he didn't know what he would do without her.

“I love you,” Analisa said knowing that he needed to hear it, he smiled at her before he kissed her again; he wrapped his arms around the brunette knowing that he would be lost without her.

"Love you too,” Fernando murmured as he kissed her again, the werewolf pulled back as Josep whimpered, he looked over at his son knowing that this had been hard on them all.

Analisa moved away from Fernando so that she could check on him; she glanced back at Fernando watched her closely, his eyes were dark and she could tell that he was on edge about having her away from him.

“So what are we doing today?” Analisa asked as she lifted up their son, she smiled softly as she looked at their daughter, she knew that Fernando wanted to go back to London as soon as possible but she knew that they had to things to do.

“I want us to go back to London,” Fernando said softly as he moved to collect their son from her, Analisa looked at him as he held Josep close before she moved to pick up Emili; she sighed as she watched her husband.

“Nando… as much as I want to go home, you need to see your family, you have every right to grieve for your father,” Analisa said making Fernando look at her, his heart ached as he thought of the man that he had been forced to kill; he hated that José had forced him into this and now he didn't know what to do.

“I don’t want to face that right now Ana,” Fernando said shaking his head, he kissed her softly knowing that she was right but he couldn't face his family right now; he needed time to adjust to what had happened.

***

“Hola Flori,” Analisa said as she closed the door behind her mother-in-law, the older woman smiled at her weakly as she looked around the home where her husband had been killed; she hated that he had caused all of this.

“How is Fernando?” Flori asked as she looked at Analisa, she didn't hold anyone responsible for what had happened; she knew that they were all victims and that if José hadn't attacked Analisa then Fernando wouldn’t have been forced to kill him; the brunette sighed as she led Flori into the living room.

“He’s in shock; he doesn’t know just how to feel right now,” Analisa said making Flori nod her head, she took a deep breath; it was like a dark cloud that hung over them since the attack and now there wasn’t any sign of it shifting any time soon.

“I’m sorry,” Analisa said as she felt guilty for what had happened, she knew that it was her fault that José had been killed by and now everyone seemed to be suffering because of it. Flori shook her head as she took Analisa’s hand.

“It wasn’t your fault, what happened was nothing but an accident waiting to happen,” Flori said knowing that she couldn't allow Analisa or Fernando to feel guilty for what had happened.

Analisa swallowed as she looked at Flori, she felt horrible that she was comforting her while it should be the other way around.

Flori’s head snapped to the stairs as Fernando appeared; he stopped at the sight of his mother as he wondered what she was doing there, he hadn't thought that she would want to see him again.

“Madre what are you doing here?” Fernando asked softly as he carefully entered the living room, Analisa offered him a weak smile as she watched him wondering how he would feel about this.

Flori smiled softly at her son, she could see that he wasn’t coping with what had happened and she hoped that she would be able to help him in some way.

“I came to see you, I don’t blame you for what happened Fernando,” Flori said as Analisa slipped out of the room to give them some time to talk; she knew that they needed to talk and it would be better if she wasn’t in the room.

Fernando ran a hand through his hair; he carefully moved to sit down knowing that he needed to talk with her about what would happen now.

“I don’t want to lose you Nando, I have only just got you back and I don’t want to lose you,” Flori said softly, she hated the thought of losing her little boy and wanted nothing more than to make things right between them; she wanted to see her grandchildren group up and have her family come and see her during the holidays.

***

Fernando wrapped his arms around Analisa’s waist and kissed her, the kiss deepened quickly as he held her close; he couldn’t believe that they had made it this far in their relationship.

“Are you feeling better?” Analisa asked as she wrapped her arms around Fernando’s neck, she kissed his lips softly knowing that slowly things were getting better; she hated to think how bad things could have gotten between them.

Nodding his head as he held her close, he kissed her gently before moving back against the wall; he pinned her to the wall as he claimed her lips.

“I love you so much,” Fernando said as he cupped her face, they were quickly approaching their first anniversary and the couple knew that they were lucky to make it this far about everything had happened to them; it was the 17th of January and the couple were focusing on what was happening at that moment in time.

“I love you too,” Analisa said as Fernando wrapped her legs around his waist, he kissed down her neck knowing that he needed her right now; the twins were sound asleep and now that they had their room back, they were going to put it to good use.

“I need you Ana,” Fernando murmured as he nipped at her mark, she moaned softly as her head rested against the wall; she had no desire to deny him what he clearly wanted, she could feel his arousal and hoped that they would be okay.

“You have me,” Analisa gasped as he bit down softly so that he didn't break the skin, she bit her lip so that she didn't cry out and wake the twins; she needed him as much as he needed her right now.

Fernando smirked at the noises that he was able to draw from Analisa, he couldn't believe that it had been so long since they had last been intimate and he knew that this would strength their relationship.

“Make love to me Fernando,” the brunette said softly as she drew his lips to hers, making him moan as he carefully moved them to the bed; the last time they had been like this was their wedding night and Fernando remembered how that had ended.