F I X E D

Chappy 74

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*Flashback*

We hugged each other because of the news that we won't be able to marry someone we don't love, that's what we're fighting for from the start.

But I didn't know this day would be the start of ending my happily life.

This day, Zenon was taken by his father, his father forced him to be with someone even though they know our relationship,  I asked them why and they said it's for our own good, I explained my side that Zenon can't be forced to be with someone because he has a relationship with me.

The party in the hotel ended and I've gone home thinking, I thought it was a good news, so the badnews he's referring to is the fact that he must marry a girl and he must love her with all of his heart just because their tradition says so.

That's foolish, so idiotic.

The day after that incident didn't went well, Zenon and I are always mad at each other, hoping to find some solutions but end up being mad.

Two months passed and our flow didn't change, he's far from the Zenon I know, every time I look at his eyes I don't see that look he used to give to me in the past, that look full of love and caring but now all I can see is grudge and hatred.

He became a monster day by day but that didn't changed the fact that I love him, I love him and I will try my whole best to understand him, but that understanding has a limit.

That time I reached my limit because he slapped me, the old Zenon couldn't have done that, he can never lay a hand on a woman, he hurted me, not only on the outside but I'm dead and suffering inside.

I couldn't handle his grudge and possession of danger anymore, I told him im leaving, I told him I'm exhausted, I told him I was not happy anymore.

I thought he will try to stop me or what but instead he smiled and thanked me for leaving, he's clearly not the Zenon I know, sometimes I can see the old Zenon in him because he'll turn his gaze to me and softened his eyes.

I know he's not mad, I know he's not like that.

But I was wrong, I became mad, I confronted him, he said sorry, he said he loves me, he said sorry for hurting me.

But I didn't listen, I can't handle it anymore, I can't handle a monster.

But it's obvious that I still love him, I left him alone, I left him to think of his own sins.

I left the country for two years and came back only to see the man I used to love is married to someone else

I admit I regretted going away, I regretted not forgiving him, I regretted not listening to him and im regretting the fact that I left him but still love him like the first day ive shown my love to him.

I'm a fool, I'm an idiot.

*End of flashback*

And now I'm crying like hell outside this damn church.

I'm a loser. I can't afford to go back there to see them happy not because of me but because of someone else.

I cried again, trying to loose the sadness in my heart, my heart aches, so i guessed I loved him more even I can't love myself, I guess I loved him so much that I'm crying my heart out.

I heard someone cleared it's throat.

"You shouldn't be crying like crazy, get up and clean yourself" it's kasimiro, sa totoo lang ayoko siyang maka usap, he's related to Zenon, they share the same blood and I'm afraid he's going tell his brother I cried helplessly because of him.