i'm tired of this world, but what do i know?

t o b e l o v e d b y t h e m o o n

to be loved by the moon
messages from her -sabrina claudio

what's the use in honesty
when people only want those
mysterious
as the moon

that's something that i can't be
im sunny
a lot more annoying
and way less charming
at times i hate the openness of me
how can i give my thoughts away so willingly?

can someone love me
like mercury?
but
even that
can go wrong
retrograde will come
and ill say all of the wrong things
ill go back to the wrong me

im too emotional for venus
i don't love right
i blame my parents
they never learned
so why should i?

uranus
could let me
inspire
but that's all that i could do
when i get tired
they would go too

i am no lover of neptune
i cannot heal the wounds burning on my skin
i destruct
inside out
can't maintain peace
with my worry
and my ups and downs

jupiter isn't impressed
with my tiny steps
can't love mars
i can barely get up
sometimes
drowning in my failure
how can i
strive?

i say maybe
pluto
because im desperate
so much so
i'd fall for
something that comes and goes
can't stay constant
but neither can i
so what do i know?

and yes,
saturn would soon go
when i couldn't manage to be consistent
and i wouldn't know which way to turn
i'd fall apart
there would be no desire to fix me
or lift me
back up
to be the sun

the sun may glow
but it is mass destruction
we only love it
when it goes

maybe that's all that i can be
maybe that's why i destroy everyone around me

keep your distance
like
earth
like
venus
like
mercury

stay away from me
'cause sometimes
i still wish to be
loved
by the moon

••••

wow
im actually
crying
astronomical TEArs