Harry Potter Characters X Reader

(3) Severus/Lupin X Depressed Reader

You blinked your eyes as you walked to Transfiguration class. You still weren't quite sure if you were dreaming or not. A lot had happened in the past hour; you had showed Professor Snape your scars and he showed you his dark mark. Most of you was expecting to wake up alone in your room Andy second now but a small part of you said that this was real.

You let out the tiniest groan as you entered Transfiguration. It wasn't the subject you hated but the teacher. Professor McGonagall was everything that all Gryffindors were, except this Gryffindor could give you detention. It was like she took pride in calling you out on everything and then taking points away when you got the answer wrong. Some would say she just expected more of you because she knows you are smart but you have a tendency to take these things personally.

When she opened the door to the classroom, you automatically went over to your normal seat. Today it seemed McGonagall was having none of that.

"Miss (Y/L/N) I would appreciate it if you sat here," she called in an impatient voice.

You wanted to groan but you knew better than to do that. So you flash her one of your best fake smiles and agreed. This was going to be a long lesson...a very long lesson for this was a double.

~Time Skip: Lunch Break~

You had done it! You survived two whole hours of your least favourite teacher. You quickly walked out of the room and went down to the great oak tree. It was your favourite place in the school, peaceful and relaxing.

You slowly nibbled at your apple as you watched the other children run and play. Even the older ones were all having a good time chatting. A small spark of of jealousy egnited inside of your stomach. Why couldn't you just be happy like them? Why did everything go wrong for you? What did you do to deserve this?

Immediately images of Maryflashed in your mind. She had been so young and innocent and you had to ruin it. You could never forgive yourself for what had happened that night. You wiped away the tears that were now rolling down your cheeks and your fake smilie returned to its usual place on your face.

After finishing your apple, you decided to head to the library. You remembered that a long time ago reading was your favourite things to do, other than playing and composing music. On the way to the library you bumped into a familiar face.

"Professor Lupin, how are you?" You asked the tall man that stood before you.

"Quite well, you?"

"Ok..." your smile faltered.

"If anything is wrong make sure to let me know," many teachers had said this to you before but, like Snape, Professor Lupin sounded truthful in his words.

"No need," the fake smile, that was so familiar to your face, returned.

"Ok, see you next period (Y/N)," he seemed to fall for your mask.

You were a bit sad to had lied to Professor Lupin, he had done nothing but be nice to you but you can't teach an old dog new tricks.

"Bye Professor!" You called after him as he walked away.

You scratched your chin, trying to remember what you were doing before your talk with Professor Lupin. Unfortunately, your thoughts were cut short by the piercing sound of the bell. That meant that it was time for Defence Against te Dark Arts, or more commonly know as DADA by Hogwarts students.

You headed down the hall that leaded to Professor Lupin's classroom. Professor Lupin was already in there, writing on the board. Before long, the other Slytherins and the Ravenclaws were gathered around the door, waiting to enter the classroom.

"I heard that she had a chat with Snape," you sharp ears heard one of the Ravenclaws whispering about you.

It wasn't that you were suprised, you were one of, if not the most, hated people in the school. But you couldn't help but feel a pang of sadness in your chest. You thought that this year things might get better.

"It's true," a tall boy from Slytherin said.

Gasps erupted around the corridor, all you wanted to do was disappear. Luckily, you were saved by Professor Lupin, who opened the door to let the whole class in.

To your horror, you saw someone else sitting in your seat so you had to take one in the middle row. Professor Lupin then started his introduction speech. DADA seemed to already be better than last year, with Gilderoy Lockhart. He explained that he was going to do a few easy sessions to asses what level you all are at. You were fine with this, slow and steady suited you fine.

He told the class that today you were going to be working on an easy spell, 'Riddikulus'. You knew that this was the spell used to defeat a boggart. You had never liked classes about boggarts, what was the point in revealing your fears to you potential enemies?

You all lined up in a line and took turns to defeat a boggart. You stood at the very end, hoping that it wouldn't reach your turn. Your boggart was a bit embarrassing since most people wouldn't fully understand it. Luckily, class ended before your turn and everyone else rushed out of the room.

"Thanks for the lesson Professor Lupin," you thank him.

"That's ok (Y/N). If you want I can stay back for a few minutes so you can have a turn at a boggart," he offered.

You seriously considered staying but your boggart revealed what you were and you weren't quite ready for anyone to find that out.

"No thanks Professor,"

"Are you sure (Y/N)? I could give you a few pointers," he smiled at you.

You really didn't want to disappoint him so you reluctantly agreed. He walked over to the box and knelt down beside it. You took a deep breath in, mentally preparing yourself for another one of your teachers to learn another one of your secrets. You gave him the all clear sign with a small nod.

He then unlocked the box and out came the round, white, glittering image of the full moon.

"Riddikulus!" You shouted and the orb-like object exploded into confetti. It didn't make you laugh but at least you weren't afraid anymore.

You turn over to Professor Lupin who looked like he had seen a ghost. Only your parents and Marie knew that you were a werewolf. That's why your parents hated you, it didn't help that on one bright night you had....you had....killed Mary. The tears stung in your eyes at the memories of Mary.

"You...you..you're a ..werewolf," he looked stunned at the realisation.

You thought that he might understand but it seemed even caring Professor Lupin couldn't understand you.

"I should be going," tears rolled down your eyes as you left the room.

You were to far away to hear Professor Lupin call out to you.

"(Y/N) wait! I didn't mean it like that!"

You walked briskly down the hall and towards the dungeon. Professor Snape would be waiting.