Harry Potter Characters X Reader

(6) Severus/Lupin X Depressed Reader

~Time Skip: after classes~
You were honestly astonished that you had forgotten about the full moon! This had never happened in your whole life! Not once had you forgotten, maybe being without your blade was causing you to go insane. You started to head to the room of requirement but the voice of Professor Lupin stopped you in your tracks.

"(Y/N), you don't have to run.... I understand your problem!" He called.

Although you didn't want to seem like a brat, you couldn't help yourself. No one, not even Lupin, could understand.

"No you don't!" You yelled.

You tried to run away down the hall but a hand caught your arm with a firm grip. You realised that it was your Professor, Professor Lupin. You could feel his soft gaze on yours but it was your pride that kept you from looking up into his gray-blue eyes. He loosened his grip on your arm, as if it was a signal for you to relax. For a brief moment you look up into his gentle eyes, once again you notice the scars on his face. They reminded you of the claw marks that you had all over you body. Sometimes it was was hard to distinguish the cuts you had done on purpose fro the ones that you gained while in wolf form but you could tell his were done by a wolf. Your eye widen as you realise that these scars were the same as yours, he was a werewolf too. Your facial features softened as you gave him an apologetic look.

"You do understand," your voice was barely audible but you knew that he heard because he nodded in reply.

Just when you thought everything was fine a new thought struck your mind like lightning. What if he was planning to hurt you while in wolf form? It was a rather far fetched thought considering what a gentle person Professor Lupin was but you knew that in wolf form you couldn't control most things. That was what happened with Mary. The thought of your darling sister once again brought sadness to your mind.

Suddenly you pulled away from Professor Lupin, deciding that it was best not to trust other werewolves, and sprinted, as fast as your legs would take you, away from Lupin.

~Time Skip: after dinner~

You had just made your way out of the great hall and started to head to the seventh floor to find the room of requirement. You mentally prepared yourself for the night ahead of you. While you were walking you considered the chance of seeing Professor Lupin there. You were not awere of any other place in Hogwarts for werewolves to complete there transformation. Maybe if you had told Dumbledore about your condition he would've given you a special place for the full moons. But confessing your problems wasn't really your style. You didn't know what would happen if two people were in the room of requirement at the same time and you didn't want to find out. Professor Lupin's wolf form was probably much bigger and stronger than yours and you didn't really feel like being torn to shreds today. So today, instead of going to the room of requirement, you decided that you would lock yourself in one of the dungeons and complete your transformation in there.

It didn't take you long to get to the dungeons, you knew your way around there because it was around the Slytherin dorms. You find the furthest dungeon from the dorms and climbed through the window. It was lucky you could fit through the window, otherwise it would've been much harder to get in.

All you could do now was wait for the moon to come up and your transformation. In the room of requirement you would normally have books to read but in the dungeon all you could do was sit around and wait.

After an hour or so of waiting, a fimilar pain struck your body. You tried your best to mute the yelps of pain that you were hollering. It would be quite disastrous if someone found you down here. You knew after you were fully transformed you would no longer be able to think like a human and you would resort to hurting yourself as there was nothing else to scratch.

After the few short minutes of your transformation, that felt like hours, it all stopped. Everything. You no longer thought about anything and started to claw at your body.

~Time Skip: Morning~

When you woke, you felt sore all over and found yourself lying in a pool of blood. Luckily you had stopped bleeding and you were only left with bright red scabs. Your clothing was torn and your hair was a birds nest. You could feel the tear stains on your face and you knew your eyes were bloodshot.

You scampered out of the dungeon window and found yourself limping around the corridor. You didn't want to go back into your dorm incase you woke someone or your commonroom because someone might be up early. You didn't think it would be late enough for anyone else to be awake so you decided to take a wonder around the school.

You slowly limped around outside the library and decided to sit on the bench. Your whole body felt raw and it felt good to relax as you sat. You looked down at your baggy jumper and trackies, they were stained red by your blood and were torn apart by your claws. If anyone saw you they would've thought you got into a fight with a hippogriff. But no one would be up at this time of day you told yourself.

Unfortunately, your assumption was wrong and you jumped with fright when you heard footsteps. They turned the corner and could now see you. You saw the silhouette of Professor Snape approaching you.

"(Y/N), what is this?" He asked sternly, obviously unimpressed.

"Umm," it was hard to explain to him that she was a werewolf even though he already knew so much.

"If I remember correctly we said that you would stop using that blade of yours."

Your eyes widened in shock as you realised that in his eyes you had done this with your blade. You looked up into his deep brown eyes, they were not soft at the moment. He looked very angry and if you didn't know better you would say he looked betrayed.

"We agreed (Y/N)," He was almost shouting now.

Tears filled your eyes again, you didn't like to see him angry at you, especially for something you didn't do. You could no longer look at him so you turned your attention to your hands and watched them fiddle with each other.

"Professor, I didn't.." you whispered.

When he didn't reply you looked up, just in time to see him snort and turn on his heels. You couldn't help but let the tears run down your cheeks once again. You got off the bench and sat next to it and then curled up into a ball. You sobbed and them sobbed some more. It wasn't your fault but he didn't know that and you couldn't see any solution except telling him about your condition but he knew too much about you already.

You then felt a comforting hand on your shoulder. You looked up and saw Professor Lupin, who was in the same state as you, gently caressing your shoulder.

"It's okay (Y/N)," his soft voice was nothing more than a whisper but it helped.

"Thank you Professor," you murmured and for the first time in a while you smiled.

You could tell he was pleased by this when he smiled too.

"You should probably go clean yourself up," he said, winking at you as he helped you up.

"Ok, thanks again Professor Lupin," you say as you regain your balance.

"Remus," He replyed.

"Remus?" You swear you heard him chuckle at your confusion.

"It's my name silly," he winked at you again, still smiling.

"Ok, Remus. Thank you." Once again you smiled at him and then quickly limped back to your dorm.