Mind

DECISION

SOMETIMES,MAY BE, ALL TIMES WHEN HE IS AROUND ME. I WANT TO BE AN ANIMAL.  AN ANIMAL WHO HUNTS, EATS, DRINKS AND PROCREATES, NOT JUST FOR CREATION BUT ALSO TO SATISFY THE INNER WANTS.

I AM TIRED OF BEING A VIRGIN MAN, UNTOUCHED OR EVEN CANNOT TOUCH ANYONE, JUST  HAS TO PUT OFF THE RAGING FIRE OF LUST IN MY GROIN, JUST BECAUSE MY BOYFRIEND IS ABUSED, TORTURED AND RIPPED OFF HIS VIRTUE BY FORCE.  SCARS HAVE ALL DISAPPEARED BUT NOT THE PAIN.

MY LUST AND PASSION IS BORN OUT OF LOVE, PURE LOVE, HEAVENLY LOVE, GODLY LOVE.  I HAVE ACCEPTED HIM AS MINE, ONLY MINE,,  I KNOW HE IS BEATEN UP IN LIFE AND THE ROAD TO RECOVERY IS VERY TOUGH.  BUT WHAT CAN I DO WITH HEART AND ACHE IN MY BODY WHEN I SEE SLEEPING HIM SO CLOSE TO ME.  I CAN JUST SEE HIM BUT CANNOT TOUCH HIM.

I WONDER WHETHER AM I  NORMAL OR A PSYCHO SINCE MY PATIENCE IS SLOWLY WEARING OFF  AND BODILY  LONGING  WANTS HIM, ONLY HIM BECAUSE I CRAVE ONLY FOR HIM  AND WHEN HIS MOUTH TOUCHED  MY BOSOM, IT  TORN OFF THE GARB OF GENTLENESS COMPLETELY,  EXPOSING MY ANIMALISTIC INSTINCT OF DISROBING HIM AND MAKING HIM MINE EITHER BY HOOK AND BY CROOK..................

Kong did not allow let  touch him for next two months.  He became hysterical and Arthit had to call the doctor who treated him.   Kong was given some sedatives for almost two days to calm him down and the doctor lashed out at Arthit for going over the board in spite of repeated warnings from him.  Arthit felt guilty in front of  the doctor and promised to be careful, for which the doctor replied that the damage was  beyond repair.  Unless, the love what Kong had for Arthit would make him understand his move.  BUT ARTHIT NEVER REGRETTED HIS ACTION.

Kong rejected Arthit's closeness out right on his face.  He did not leave him nor stayed away from him just  retreated himself whenever Arthit came close to him or tried to touch him.  When Arthit tried to talk him out, he refused to speak to him and became more and more stubborn to deal with.  Though, they both still slept on the same bed, shared the same roof, Arthit cooked for Kong and never let Kong go even from his gaze  except during his office hours and Kong's college hours. Kong too always waited for Arthit to pick him up or drop him at the college. An unknown cold war had started between him not to leave or avoid or break up.  But both were obsessed with each other either because of love or lust.  Arthit was planning to rip off his own boyfriend's grace and virtue slowly and waiting for the right opportunity to pounce on its prey.  EVEN IF IT TOOK MONTHS ARTHIT WAS WAITING AND WAITING FOR THE CHANCE.........

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