psycho | jaeden lieberher

twenty nine

I pull up in front of Finn Wolfhard's house within 10 minutes of leaving Jaeden's. Even walking up to this house seems more natural, more routine. I already Snapchatted him I was coming over at a red light, and he just responded with an ab pic and a thumbs up emoji so I guess that's good news. When I ring the doorbell it takes him a minute, but he opens the door with a cocky grin. "You couldn't stay away could you?"

"No, I couldn't." I say sarcastically, but Finn has never been keen on sarcasm when it's about sex. Especially when he's drunk. "Get me a beer." I demand, not request.

He goes to get my drink while I settle myself down on the living room couch. He comes back with two beer cans, and the same cocky grin. "Did something happen with Lieberher for something?"

"No small talk, just get drunk." I grab the beer from his hand and open it. I partially chug it, or at least try. He only takes a few sips, he's probably already drunk being it's been a long night already. He talks about the band as we drink, I end up finishing the beer and he drank however much he felt he needed to. The second I put the empty can on the table in front of us I lean over and kiss him, which then leads to him lifting my legs so I'm sitting on his lap. He still kisses the same, harsh and cold. It's something I wouldn't normally say I've missed, but I'm drunk so I will. I've missed him. I've missed how he kisses, and how he grabs me. I've missed Finn Wolfhard.

I sleep on Finn's couch, while he sleeps in his bedroom. I decided driving home in the morning and saying I slept at Maddie's is easier than going home after 12 to my parents being all worried. Waking up for school at Finn's is impossible, probably because you only do it if you're hung over. I decide driving to my house is dumb because my mom can smell alcohol and sex from a mile away, so I drive to Maddie's instead. She gives me clothes, something that doesn't make it look like I slept at my ex boyfriends house. So I walk in to school with Maddie by my side, in a black mini shift dress and my sneakers from last night. I probably still smell like Finn's house since I didn't have time to shower, but I guess only Finn's friends and random hoes would know what Finn's house smells like.

The school day is a pretty average hung over school day, not the first I'd ever experienced. The only differences from the other times is the way two people look at me. Back then Finn would look at me with a huge smirk, now when I see him he is straight faced but winks. Back then Jaeden wouldn't look at me, not when I see him we make eye contact but quickly break it. Rehearsal wasn't awkward or bad, it just wasn't good. It was uncomfortable for me, maybe not for him. I don't even know what to think. I don't know if he feels the same as me, I don't know if he doesn't feel anything about me. I just have no fucking clue about Jaeden right now. But I do know about Finn. I know that last night was a mistake, but not a big mistake, an average size mistake. It was good, it always is, but I didn't need it. I really didn't need it. But I mean it was really good.

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hella short bc i tried to write more in this chapter and HATED it so yeah um enjoy ig

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