The outsider

Chapter 21

"Dare?" He hummed as he was working on paying the bills, I sat on the kitchen counter and it was currently 2:30 in he morning. "I'm tired." "Go to bed." "Not with out you." "I'm paying bills kourtney." "So? It's 2:30 in the fucking morning." I looked at the clock on the wall, "Now it's 2:31-" "Kourtney. It's gunna take me longer to do this when your breathing down my neck and telling me what time it is every time it changes." He raised his voice a little and anger boiled inside of me. "Don't you raise your voice at me darry." "What are you going to do about it?" "I didn't do anything wrong! I just want to go to sleep in my husbands arms!" "Well im busy!" "You don't have to pay them right now, it's late!" "Do you want to keep living here or do you want to end up homeless!?" "Darry this can wait till the morning!" "It is morning!" "Why are you yelling at me!?" "Because your being childish-" "Childish! Really?! Your going to call me childish after everything we've been through?!" "You can act childish with out being a child and that's exactly what your doing?! That's all you ever do! Act like a damn child! It's bad enough I have to take care of my kid brothers but I didn't think I'd have to take care of my childish wife to!" At this point a few tears ran down my face. "You know what Darrel. I'm so tired of fighting with you. That's all we do, we fight and fight. You've hurt me more than once and even pushed Ponyboy causing him to run away with Johnny. You've got anger issues and I'm not putting up with them." I jumped off the counter and looked at the angered faced Darry, I took my ring off and placed it on the table. "You've got to fix it, because I can't take it anymore." More tears ran down my cheeks and I walked out of the kitchen. "Kourtney! Kourtney honey please come back-" "No Darry! I can't! I've given you multiple chances, over and over again, and you've blown them. Give me back my ring when you've learned to control yourself." I turned to face him, his eyes glistened like he was holding back tears. "Kourtney I'm sorry I can do better, just stay." "Darry. I love you, but I can't spend everyday wondering is your gunna yell at Me, or soda or Ponyboy. I don't want to worry that when your mad you'll lose control and hurt someone. You've got anger issues Darry, believe it or not you do." Soda came into the living room, we must have woken him up. "What's going on?"

Darry couldn't say anything, he just shook his head, Soda looked at me with pleading eyes. "I'm leaving for a while. Gonna stay at bucks I guess." "What why?!" Darry again shook his head, "You know it as much as I do sodapop. Darrel's got anger issues, and I don't want to be around someone like that. Maybe you could help him fix it, but I'm not coming back until he does." I turned on my heel and began to walk and soda came after me, walking next to me as I walked down the street in the cold, in nothing but A pair of shorts and Darry's shirt. "Kourtney. I know Darry's messed up a few times and things but he loves you." "I know. I know. I love him to soda but I can't deal with the anger and him loosing control. I've delt with my dad like that and I rather not deal with Darry to." "What if I can fix him? You'd come back right?" I smiled and looked at soda, "That's all I want Soda." He stopped me by placing his hands on my shoulders, "I promise you kourtney. He'll fix it. You'll be home at the end of the week." I smiled a little more. "Thank you soda." He hugged me and I hugged him back, "Anything for you."

I knocked on bucks door and he opened. "Winston? Come on it's 3  in the morning." "I need a place to stay for a few days." He sighed, "You fucking Winston's are a pain in the ass, take Dally's room. You can stay as long as you'd like." "Thank you buck." He nodded and shut the door, I walked over to Dally's old room and took a deep breath as I entered. Once I locked the door I knew I couldn't sleep so I decided to take a shower. My clothes were off and on the floor as I started the water up, that was when I noticed something on the wall, A big old D.W. I smiled, it stood for Dallas Winston, of course the bastard had to mark his place. A flashback came into my mind and I let the memory take over.

Flashback~
I took my clothes off as I Hurd the shower run, I opened the shared bathroom my brother and I had and walked in. "Kourtney! Come on I'm naked!" My 11 year old brother said. "But dal... it's shower time." "Kourtney... were growing up. I can't take showers with you anymore." I pouted and nodded my head as I turned around slowly. He sighed, "Okay fine. Get in." I turned back around with excitement as I stood in the shower. Dally, who was taller then me by a lot stood behind me. I was up to his nipples, and I was 9. Man was I short. "Why did we make this a thing. It's gross." He said as he began to scrub my back with soap. "I just like it when you hum and wash my hair for me." I said softly, he laughed and began to rinse off my back. "Besides, I cant clean my back." We giggled. Then dally began to hum to me as he placed the shampoo on his hands. I have no idea what song it was But I closed my eyes and enjoyed the feeling of him scrubbing my scalp with his finger nails to clean my hair. Then I felt the water hit my head and he used his other hand to cover my eyes so soap wouldn't get in. I liked how he took care of me like this, made sure that nothing bad would happen to me. He was only 11 and he was taking care of me more then my own parents did. That meant a lot to me. "Dally?" "Yeah kid?" "I love you." He smirked as I turned around at the same time as him, to return the favor and clean his back. "I love you to."