The outsider

Chapter 29

"Come on DJ. You've gotta sleep." All he did was cry for his dad as I tried to lay him down for a nap. "Daddy's not here baby. It's just mama, pony and Bee." "Dada!" "DJ. Come on." I hugged him close to me and tried to rock him to sleep. Two came in and smiled, "Can I try?" "Might as well." I handed him DJ and DJ clung to him as he cried. "Shhh... it's okay. Shhh." Two began to hum to him and slowly rocked him In His arms, "Bee." He said softly as he began to fall asleep. Two looked down at him with a proud smile and then at me, my mouth was open in shock. "What the hell?! Where did you learn to do that?" I whispered shouted. "My little sister and cousins." He slowly Put DJ down in his crib and we exited the room. I hugged two-bit and he gladly hugged me back, "Thanks bee." He chuckled, "No problem. He's... he's a real daddy's boy. Huh?" "Yeah." I let go of two as pony walked in.

"Is DJ asleep?" "Yeah with the help of Two." Pony smiled, "well now Can... you help me with my homework?" "Of course pone lets go." We all headed to the kitchen where I was cooking dinner and two was helping pony with his homework. "This sucks ass." "Laungage two." "I'm 22 years old I'll say what I want." "Fine what's wrong then?" "The best part of the gang is gone at war, and we'll probably never see them again!" Pony sighed, "Don't say that two-" "It's true! Darry's the father figure, Steve's the joy and sodas got the charms, what are we? Just A little boy, a immature scared man and a baby machine!" I threw the spatula on the floor and turned to yell at two-but. "Is that all you think we are!?" "Hell Yeah I do." "We're way more then that two-" "Shut up pony your just a kid-" "Yeah well so are you two, and I got news for you I'm way more then just a fucking baby machine!"

This fighting continued until DJ's cries filled the small house. I sighed, "Pony finish cooking, two get out of my house. Now." "Fine, with, me." He said with pauses and stormed out of the house, I couldn't help but let some tears fall as I walked to my crying son. "Shhh. Baby. I'm sorry." I picked him up and held him close to my chest, "I know you miss daddy. I... I miss him to." Soon enough DJ cried himself to sleep in my arms, I sadly sat him down in his crib and sat down on my bed, tears freely fell down my face as I thought about Darry.

Darry's POV~
All I could do was think of kourtney as we lined up. Soda and Steve trailed behind me, but still all I could think about was her. I loved her so much, and just The thought of never seeing her again killed me. Six months is bad enough, but dying here and never seeing her again? No. I can't do that, I have to survive. For her.

"Mr. Darrel Curtis!" The sounds of my name bright me out of my thoughts. "What? I'm sorry sir." "I asked you a question." "I'm sorry sir... I wasn't listening." "I'll say it again then. You all are here to right for your country they say, but me? I say different. I say your here to fight for loved ones! For that special someone! Cause if you die out here and we lose then you just killed them to. Now... Mr. Curtis, I asked if you had any loved one to fight for.... I'm guessing by the way you zoned out the first time I made that speech that you do. What's her name?"

It was silent for only a moment as a smile came across my face. "Kourtney, sir." "Kourtney. That's a pretty name." "Yeah... it is." "She's your girl, correct?" "Yes sir. She's my wife." He smiled, "Well. Fight hard so you can go back to her, and maybe start a family with her." "I have a son sir, With her. After we married." He stopped in his tracks and turned to me. "How. Old is he?" He seemed to have trouble asking me the question, I licked my lips and took a deep breath to keep the tears back. "He just turned one." "What's his name?" "DJ. Stands for Dallas Johnny. He's named after my wife's brothers who couldn't be here with us today, due to... unfortunate events." The Sargent walked up to me slowly and placed his hand on my shoulder. "You fight hard. You fight smart, and give your self the best chance to go back to them. Your son.... he needs his father." I nodded my head and looked down at the ground.

Sodas POV~
I watched as Darry tried so hard not to cry as the Sargent made him talk about kourtney and DJ. The Sargent opened his mouth to speak but I cut him off, "Sargent sir. He's been through a lot already, you've pulled him away from his wife and son in a two days notice and are sending him out to war where he might die and never see them again. Don't make him talk about it anymore." Darry looked at me with shocked eyes but the soon went back to the ground as he knew I was right. The Sargent looked at me, we weren't supossed to talk unless talked to and I just told him off. I'm screwed. "Who do you think you are sodapop? Cause I'll tell you something, your nothing but a flat carbonated drink out here." I nodded. "If you want to talk so much then talk. You got a special someone like your brother here?" I thought about Kourtney for a moment, her smile and bright eyes popped into my mind. "Your smiling but not answering my question. Who is she?" My smile dissapeared, "Id rather not say." The Sargent scuffed. "You've got a lot to learn sodapop." Steve looked at me once the Sargent turned away and began to speak again, and judging by the look in his eyes...

He knew exactly why I didn't say her name.

Kourtney's POV~
The next day pony, two, DJ, and I sat at the breakfast room table in Silents. We had plates in front of us, but no one ate, not even DJ. It wasn't until two sighed that a single sound was made. "I'm sorry about yesterday." I looked at two and smiled a bit. "It's okay." "Yeah two... we get it. We're all worried and hurting here." He's smiled at pony and took both of our hands into his. "I love you guys." "We love you to." DJ, started to cry so I let go of two and tried to feed him baby food, although he refused to eat it and continued to cry. "Fuck. I think he needs milk, Darry leaving must be messing with him. Huh? Is the problem baby?" I kissed his head as he cried real tears and hugged me. "Do... do you guys mind?" Two and pony looked at eachother, "It's part of life." Pony said, I smiled and looked at two who swallowed and looks at the crying baby. "Anything for the little bug." I smiled and handed Two, DJ. "Hold him for a sec." He nodded and tried to calm down the baby. "Wow. Haven't done this in a while." I pulled my arms into Darry's shirt I was wearing. "Okay, Hand him to me under the shirt please." Two got up and i helped him hold up the shirt as he placed DJ in my arms under the shirt. I looked down through the neck hole to direct DJ's mouth to my nipple. "Come on baby. You've got to eat." He wouldn't take it, I sighed defeated but kept trying. "Two can you rub his legs, like your massaging them? It helps him calm down so he can eat." He nodded and moved the chair next to me so he could do what I asked.

"Thanks." He just smiled, I looked over at pony who was studying what was going on. His curiosity is the best thing about him, Honestly. "Come on baby. Please." Soon enough with the help of two massaging him and me directing him he latched onto my left nipple and began to eat. "Oh my gosh! He's doing it. Yay, baby!" He looked up at me through the neck hole and I smiled at him as he ate. "Okay... I don't miss that." I tried my hardest to keep smiling as him sucking on my nipple began to hurt a bit. It's been a while sense we've done this. "Is it hurting?" Pony asked. "Kinda, but I'll get used to it. As long as he's eating." "Do I keep rubbing?" "Yes please, until he's done." "How will we know when he's done?" Pony Asked. I laughed, "You'll know."

It was silent for a second the only noise was DJ sucking. "That's so gross." "It's not gross. It's beautiful." I said and smiled even bigger. "I mean he's sucking on your nipple.... that's gross." I looked at two and scuffed, "You know you sucked on your moms boobs too right?" He thought about it and almost looked like he was gunna throw up. Pony and I laughed as I looked back at DJ. "It's a part of life two. It has to happen." "Exactly." I said agreeing with pony.

Soon DJ unlatched. "Two put that table napkin on your shoulder." "Okay." He did as I asked, "Now Take DJ and pat his back gently until he burps I gotta clean up." He nodded and took DJ out of my arms and did as I asked. I got a napkin and began to clean up the milk that was still coming out of my nipple. It was just a bit of after shock I guess, when I was done I put my arm back into the holes as DJ burped. Two looked disgusted as he handed me DJ and took the nasty napkin off of his shoulder. "Now we gotta eat some real food DJ." I sat him on the table and tried to feed him a tiny spoonful of baby food. He gladly took it and began to move it around his mouth before smiling and smiling at me. He has a lot of teeth now, and look even more adorable then before. "Yay!" He said and I giggled along with pony and two, I kept feeding him until he was done and wanted down. "Do you wanna play with uncle pony?!" I said in a baby voice and DJ began to bounce with excitement and throw his hands in the air. "You hear that Pone? Someone wants to play with you." "Let's get playing!" Pony took DJ out of my arms and ran into the living room, I smiled a little as I began to eat my food that was now cold. "Your a great mom." I looked at two as I swallowed my bite. "You think so?" He nodded, "You take care of DJ by putting him before yourself." "That's what moms are supossed to do." He scuffed, "Well. Not all moms do that... so he fact that you are, makes you a great mom." I frowned a bit and played with my food with my fork. "Darry's a great father to... DJ... he's so lucky."

"Yeah He is." I tired to fight back the tears but I couldn't help but let them fall. "Hey. Darry will come back for you." I looked at him as I placed the fork down, "What am I supossed to do till then? I'm... I'm nothing with out him." Two hugged me and I hugged him back as I closed my eyes. "Your everything with out him kourtney." I smiled slightly but stayed in my position. "Maybe. Maybe not, but I don't want to find out." Two pulled away and smiled at me, "You got no choice." I smiled a real smile. "I guess so."