The outsider

Chapter 52

As Steve drove me back to his place the car ride was silent. The only sound was the car on the road and out deep breathing, as we got out of his car Steve blocked me from getting into Darry's truck and looked at me. "Move Steve." "Oh so you can talk?" "Yeah. Now move." "No. Not until you tell me what your thinking." "Steve move-" "No." "St-" "Tell me what's on your mind." I pushed Steve into Darry's car and held him by his shirt, "You want me to tell you fine! I'm scared Steve! I'm terrified! I'm about to go tell Sodapop that I'm four months pregnant and then I have to go and tell Darry that his Ex wife is pregnant with his brothers kid! And if that's not the worst I have to tell my two fucking kids that there gonna have a baby sibling running around oh but it's not daddy's baby's, no it's uncle fucking Sodapops! How the fuck do you think they'll tend to that Steve? So yeah I'm fucking terrified right now, actually terrified is a understatement. I'm petrified.... totally and utterly petrified." I closed my eyes and let go of Steve as I took a deep breath, "God I'm having a panic attack." I said softly, "Hey calm down." Steve said as he hugged me, "Everything's going to be okay." "No it's not!" "Kourtney your thinking about the bad stuff, think about the good stuff." "Like what?" I asked, Steve made me look at him a smile smiled. "Imagine how excited Sodapop is going to be when you tell him he's a father." I swallowed and smiled as I imagined his bright smile, "He'll be so excited Kourtney... and that's worth anything."

"Are you serious?" Soda said as I told him, I frowned. "Yep." "H-how far along?" Soda asked as he ran a hand through his hair I opened my mouth but he cut me off, "Can you get an aborotion?" I narrowed my brows and looked at him, "You want me to get an abortion?" "I don't want you to, but you have to. I mean I'm DJ and Jenna's Uncle, your thier mother we can't have a kid." He stood up and sighed. "This can't be happening." "Sodapop-" "Come on I'll drive you to the hospital-" "Soda-" "Darry doesn't even have to know this can be our little secret-" "Sodapop Curtis!" I yelled as I stood up, "Abortion isn't an Option... I'm four months pregnant." He swallowed as he looked at me with shock, "What?" I placed a hand on my stomach and smiled, "I'm Four months pregnant." Soda smiled, "How?" I shrugged, "I've been so stressed lately... I wasn't even thinking about my dizziness and my period being late." He swallowed again and rubbed his neck, "Four months?" "Yeah." He sighed and sat on the bed, "So... we're having a baby?" I smiled and sat next to him, "Yeah... we are." I'm a flash soda pushed me into the bed and laid on top of me as he pampered me with kisses. "Soda!" I yelled as I giggled, he stopped and started at me with love. "Does this mean your happy?" He flashed me his famous smile and kissed me with passion, "I'm beyond happy... we're starting a family." "I love you soda." I reached up and placed my hand on his cheek, "You'll make a great dad." Once again we kissed.

"Your pregnant?" Soda and I pulled away and looked at the door way, slowly we both sat up, "Uhh. Yeah Ponyboy I am." He licked his lips and looked away, "Does Darry know?" "Just you, soda and Steve." He looked back, "Well congrats. Kourtneys right Sodapop, you will make a great dad." "Pony." I pleaded as he walked away, "Pony wait." I quickly got off the bed and ran to catch up to him. "What?" He said, "Pone, you and I both knew this was going to happen sooner or later." He looked over to see if soda had followed and when he saw he didn't he leaned in close. "Then it shouldn't have happened." I stood there frozen as pony leaned back and shrugged, "I don't mind, but imagine what people will think when they realize that Jen and DJ are this baby's cosibling." Slowly he walked away leaving me with tears in my eyes.

It was only a few minutes later that I walked back into my room to see Sodapop waiting. "What happened?" He asked as he ran up and hugged me, I hugged him back and took a deep breath. "Nothing. We were just talking about Darry." Sodapop held me tighter and kissed my head, "Yeah that's what worries me." I shrugged slightly, "There ain't nothing we can't handle." He smiled and pulled away from me, "Babe can I ask you something that's been bothering me." I narrowed my brows, "Whats up?" "When we found out about Rebecca... and you figured out that I was sleeping with her you slapped me... and told me you could never be in love with me... what changed?" I frowned and pulled away from him completely, "Honestly soda... I was pissed. You had been sleeping with my twin sister thinking it was me, and I'm top of that I had just found out Darry cheated on me. I already loved you but I was so full of anger that I couldn't control what I was saying." He smiled, "Yesh... but then when you were in that wierd state you said you cold never be with a guy like me-" "Sodapop Curtis. Are you doubting my love for you? You do realize I'm 4 months pregnant with your child and we ar whetting married in three months right?" He shrugged, "I just want you to be happy." I stood on my top toes and kissed him, "I love you soda, and I promise you I'm as happy as I can be." "Until we tell Darry." I sighed, "Yeah.. but I have an idea." "Oh gosh your ideas are never easy." I laughed, "It'll be fine."