혼자 》Poetry

-=Feeling Trapped=-

I look around and all I see are empty people,
empty people going through the daily routine in their mundane lives,
Yes they're walking, breathing, moving - but when you look deeper - they're all dead inside.
The more time goes by - the more we forget what it feels like to have passion, excitement, desires.

And I myself am trapped
Silently going through my everyday tasks but on the inside i'm screaming to break out.
Tired of going to a school I hate, making small talk, pursuing empty dreams - One day i'm going to break.
All we seem to do is the same exact thing, mind numbing thing every single day.
I'm scared i'm going to end up like everyone else in this place and it's slowly driving me insane.
But how do I escape?
How do I fill this void inside me? What's the answer - travelling, religion, fame?

We just live for temporary moments,
little bits of happiness to ease our pain.
But soon as those moments are finished the dark thoughts creep up on us again.
No one ever talks about it, we force ourselves to suppress it, but we all know it's there.

I mean who says there's only one type of way of living anyway?
Sometimes I feel like no one else gets it
it's like sure you can dream - but don't dream to big
cos you need to be realistic,
I look around and no one seems to be happy,
everyone's looking into their phone screens to block themselves from reality
cos reality has become too depressing
we watch ourselves counting down the clock,
wasting time without empty lives?
most people would rather settle and just survive,
than take a chance to know what it feels like to really be alive,
They tell me that this is the way to do things properly,
and I just can't help but question why?
Surely, I can't be wrong for wanting more in life.

One day i'll wake up and think fuck, i've wasted my life away.
And you know what the worst part is - i'll only have myself to blame.
I can't let myself become that person, I refuse, I need to make a change,
life isn't a movie, I can't just wait for things to magically fall into place,
if I want to truly live, if I want to make something of myself, then the change has to start today.