혼자 》Poetry

-=Fake Friends=-

I'm tired of all these fake friends,
lying behind my back wondering when it'll end,
seems like fakeness is the new trend,
like we're going through the motions just playing pretend.
I keep putting myself out there, only to be let down again.

Lately I feel like I'm in a room full of people that I don't know
surrounded by empty faces and feel so alone,
it's exhausting putting on a front all the time
some days I wish I'd just stayed at home.

Just 'friends' on social media, trying so hard to get the perfect picture for likes,
yet in person, you can never seem to treat me right.
Guess it's my fault for choosing to ignore all the signs,
live in denial and act like everything's fine.

Portraying a friendship that's fake,
say you love me online but never to my face,
trying so hard to get those likes every single day
didn't think friendship would be this way.

Only here when you need something, only here for yourself,
funny when it's me the one who's calling, you're never here to help

Cancel last minute, late responses, no regards to how I feel
Man I just want to know what it feels like to have something real.
Someone who actually cares, can talk to for hours about nonsense,
Someone who will actually be there for me, my day one, my constant.

I'm tired of trying to make things work, I've become so guarded,
Looking at how bad things have become wondering how it started.
I trusted you,
I told you all my secrets and that isn't easy.
But then you spoke behind my back and hung them out like dirty laundry.
For what?
A few moments of laughter
Yes you got people talking about me,
did it make you feel good after?
Thanks to you I've learned to keep my mouth shut.
I don't talk about myself anymore and I regret ever opening up.

I feel so dumb, I didn't have a clue,
it was only when I turned my back, that I saw the real you.

Tired of opening myself up only to be let down,
Starting to feel like real people don't exist now.
constantly the butt of the joke,
everyone's laughing, and I guess I'm the clown.
Starting to wonder if there are any loyal people around.

You don't like me, that's fine,
I just wish I found out sooner and didn't waste my time.
I guess I'm just sick of all the lies.

Guess I should of seen it coming,
but I just wanted to be a part of something,
Sad thing is I've gotten so used to it that I started to play along,
Putting up with it all, when I knew that it was wrong.
Surrounded by so many people but never once felt like I belonged
Constantly hoping it would get better, but I've just been putting up with it for too long.

But you know what I deserve better than this,
for once, I'm going to be strong.
I know what I'm worth and it's more than this,
I think it's time, it's time to move on.