혼자 》Poetry

-=feeling like you're falling behind in life=-

So you're struggling,
And you can't help but feel like you're falling behind in life,
Like deep down, you know, something isn't quite right,
And honestly, it's eating you alive.

When people ask you "what are you doing with your life?"
You say "umm, I'm just going with the flow"
Which is basically code for.. "yeah, I don't really know".

You're supposed to have everything figured out right?
You're supposed to just know who you are?
But you can't help but look around and think man, I don't even know where to start.
You go from being a carefree child to a life full of responsibility,
Decisions now have consequences and you're sat there, questioning your ability.

You're expected to have a five year plan - house, kids, car,
Yet you're still standing at the starting pointing feeling like you're not going to make it very far.

Feels like you're always the one at the back and everyone else, they're ahead of the game,
Everyone's competing, there's so much pressure, when did life become one big race.
You're not even trying to excel at this point, you're just trying to keep up with the pace,
And you're scared to admit, even to yourself, that maybe you're in last place.

You thought you'd be further than where you are,
You thought you'd have everything figured out by now,
That you'd be working towards your goals,
And your life would have magically sorted itself out.
And you know you shouldn't compare but you can't help but look around,
Feels like everyone else knows what they're doing,
But you can't seem to get there somehow.

It's so toxic but you can't help but compare.
We see everyone's highlight reel and can't help but wish we were there.
We become insecure, we become jealous,
We start making up excuses about how life's not fair.

We're so focused on how the world perceives us, when we should be focusing on ourselves,
It's okay to fail and struggle sometimes, but more importantly, it's okay to ask for help.

We choose to hide our problems, we don't talk about it, but chances are there are people out there who feel the exact same way,
Feeling behind in life is pretty normal, and feeling like you're not at your best is okay,
Instead of beating ourselves up we should be motivating ourselves to change,
But change in a healthy and positive way.

Life's not a race and we're all on different paths,
Instead of comparing ourselves to other we should focus on what we already have.
Feeling unsure about things, doesn't mean you've failed, it's a sign that you're figuring yourself out,
Changing paths, learning new things, discovering yourself - isn't that what life's all about?

The key for me - has been to keep myself busy.
Take every opportunity to work hard on your goals,
And in time, eventually, you'll start to feel whole.