Blessings of Anathema

Chapter LXVI: Odessa X

You've always been abandoned, is it your turn?

I stared out to the facility from the cliff I watched over from. It's still a bit dark out, the sun slowly rising. Dalton's plan is simple. A bit too simple for him. What is he planning?
The plan consist of 3 teams.
The 4 man team of:
-Dalton
-Proph
-Pablo
-Cas

They'll take on the back of the facility. That's where most the action will be at.

The 2 man team of:
-Me
-Ray

We are to wait until after the alarm is sounded. Once the middle facility is split between which side to defend, we sweep into opposite mid-facility sides and attack the enemy from behind.

The 2 man team of:
-Ken
-Marz

This team will enter straight from the entrance. They'll take on the front wave of guards but shouldn't have too much to deal with afterwards. This is the team that's assigned to free the kids

There's just one issue. I'm supposed to clear what bit of guards remain in my side of the middle and then go right. Which is towards the main front, where Dalton's team is. I understand that's where I'm needed the most however I trust in that team to handle itself.
But what if I'm wrong? What if I go left and the numbers overwhelm them? Or what if I stick right and Ray gets held up so the small team of 2 gets wiped out?
I grabbed my head and began to rub my hair. I don't know what to do. I'm too far from Ray to ask him to go right instead. Dalton is strong,Proph is strong.... I'm sure they'll be fine.
Ken... he's always been there. Even after I pushed him away. Even after I abandoned him, he continued to watch over me. He knew exactly where to find me.
I looked up into the sky. Why is this decision so hard? I know exactly what I want in my brain but my heart... why is it suddenly an issue. Is this fear? Fear of letting them down? Fear of them failing without me?
Why I am the one stuck in the middle, why can't I be calling the shots? I guess that's just the hands I'm dealt. We moved too quickly without thinking things through. Foolish.
Explosions light up the air as both team began to make their way inside. It's almost time. I squeezed onto my Scythe.
I know what's best for me. I knew ever since we were kids. That's why I did what I did. I did it so he would never have to.
I've always been the one abandoned. I've always been alone. I can't say it bothers me though, I'm pretty used to it. I've only abandoned one person.... and I've always been okay because I knew that person was fine. However this time...
The alarms sounded from the facility. I leaped down towards it and began to fall to it.
I have many friends. Some I care about more than others, but none I want to let down. It could be said that my friends are the only people I care about letting down. Sometimes your put in a situation where you have to betray one or the other. Even in the most modest form.
I busted through the window and landed on the floor.
If I'm going to betray someone...
I sliced my Scythe and cut open a guards stomach. I then turned down a hall and started running. I'm sorry Dalton, Proph, Pablo, Cas... but....
I'd rather it be the one I care least about.