This chapter may trigger those with suicidal thoughts or intentions/past.
Colby's POV
Sams been doing great these past few weeks. He hasn't been hating himself or telling me he wants to die. He's been happy and normal, doing videos and what not. It made me feel confident that he was better, that that dark part of him was gone. Today we were sitting on the couch and watching a movie with him curled up against my chest. I kissed the side of his head with a smile and rubbed his side. He was snuggled close to me and had a light smile on his face, but it didn't seem like he was very tuned into the movie. I think he was just happy to feel "normal" again. He turned and looked up at me with loving eyes.
"Thank you for everything you've done baby" he said softly as he reached up and caressed my cheek.
"Of course baby. I'd do anything for you" I said kissing him softly as I ran my fingers through his hair. He blushed and reached up kissing me softly. I kissed him back and we kissed for a few minutes before I reluctantly pulled away so I could go to the bathroom.
Sams POV
I sighed and watched him go. I felt really blissful and happy as I watched him walk to the bathroom. Then I turned and looked over at the TV and got invested in the movie again, until my phone went off.
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I hate to burst your bubble little boy but Colby's mine. He's been cheating on you for weeks, and the only reason he came out with you is to become more famous because of how many fans support the idea of solby. You know I had sex with him first, and he kissed me first, and he's always loved me. He trash talks you all the time, and he's considering just dumping you so he doesn't have to care for your weak ass anymore. Do him a favor please and kill yourself. Thanks
I stared at the text in shock and looked at the picture. I couldn't believe he would do that to me, he wouldn't do that to me right?
Lier! He would never cheat on me like that. I don't know who you are but I do know that he's my baby and he has done everything to take care of me and he would never NEVER hurt me like that.
I'm so sad that you think that. He really does have you under a spell. Sweetheart I'm trying to spare you the pain, but if you don't want to believe me that's your problem.
I sat there staring at my phone and I could feel my heart breaking and the walls of happiness in my head cracking. The darkness coming back, and they were meaner than ever.
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He doesn't love you!
You're worthless!
Slit your wrists.
Watch the blood drip along the tiles
Remind him what pain he caused you
He won't even care.
Make him feel your pain
Give in to our wishes
I had tears in my eyes and and I was zoning out, clenching my phone tightly and letting the voices consume me. I stood up and walked upstairs slowly, feeling like I almost didn't have control over my own body. I walked into our room and opened my secret drawer before grabbing my switchblade and walking to the bathroom. I closed and locked the door quietly as I heard Colby open the door downstairs. I laid against the side of the tub as I looked at my knife and the voices got louder.
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Do it!
One cut two cut
Blood running down your arms
The quiet drip drip as it hits the tile.
The blissful feeling of slipping into the dark ocean
Let go
Don't let him hurt you
Join us
We love you sammy
"Sam?" I heard Colby call and I stayed quiet as I spun the knife as I smiled softly before placing the blade on my arm and ran it down my arm. "Sam?! Sam where are you?!" I sighed as I felt the numbness run through my arm as I watched the blood run down my arm. Then I heard him running up the stairs and I ran my knife down my other arm as I smiled. My arm turned red like roses, like my love, slowly running from my body. My phone buzzed and Colby was texting me now. He was frantic, clearly and I heard him juggling the doorknob. I opened it and pulled the picture of Colby and that girl again as I watched my blood run down my arms. I could feel the waters slowly lapping at my mind, soothingly pulling me into them, slowly slowly. At some point I ended up on my side and could see the door, and the blood pooling around me. The door was thrown open and I felt a smile spread across my face when I saw him running to me. He can feel my pain now. He was speaking to me, but it sounded like he was murmuring, like I was underwater.
"Sammy, babyboy, oh god why why would you do this? You were doing so good. Please, please baby it's gonna be okay. Just stay with me, please stay with me." I laughed softly and sleepily.
"Its otay daddy. You dwont wuv me. It's otay."
"What? Why would I not love you? Baby why would you ever think that?" He was sobbing and he had his bloodied hand on my cheek as he was dialing a phone number.
"P-phone" I whispered softly and he looked over at my phone and I saw his face harden in anger before he put the phone to his ear.
"That's not real Sammy. I only love you" then he was talking on the phone but I didn't really hear what he was saying. The waves were wrapping around me and pulling me into there cool loving arms and I smiled and slowly closed my eyes but Colby was shaking me, he wouldn't let the waves take me. I started whining and groaning as I tried to get away from me but he was holding onto me tightly. Why wasn't he letting me leave?! He needed to let me leave. The waves fought harder and I felt them tugging at me begging, coaxing, dragging. And the last thing I heard was the soft voice of a girl as she pulled me into the dark black ocean
Don't let him drag you through the light. Come slip into the dark, where I would take care of you.
