The Luna's Journey

Chapter 13

Yes a human. What's wrong with having a human mate? It's happened before." I looked at him like he was the crazy one.

"Let me get this straight, you would drag a human, who has no idea that werewolves even exist, and make him the leader of a pack?" He said shocked.

"That's not exactly how it would wo-"

"How wouldn't it?" He demanded cutting me off and making me angry.

"If you would find a little manners inside of you and not cut me off I would explain that to you. Firstly, I wouldn't drag a human into anything, I would never force someone to love me or be a part of my world if they didn't want too. I resent you for even implying that! Secondly, humans have been our mates before and have made as good of mates as a born werewolf. Thirdly, if I find someone who loves me for me, they aren't going to care that I'm a werewolf and that they are going to be a leader of a pack, they will love me and my people." I snapped back at him.

"Humans can't be trusted! What if they tell one of their friends, then that friend tells another and another, it's an endless cycle!" He said throwing his hands up exasperated.

"Need I remind you, that you are in fact a human and shockingly you've been able to keep your mouth shut about us and the Mers? Although, after today I'm not entirely sure how you've been able to keep quiet because you won't shut up now!" I swallowed the growl that I so very much wanted to let loose.

"Well you're the one that wants to drag a human into this world, no matter the consequences! It's just not fair to them or your pack." He said stepping closer to me and I felt my heart speed up a little, probably because I was getting mad, it had nothing to do with the gorgeous man that was now inches away from me.

"You don't think I don't think or care about the consequences if it were to go wrong? I do! I think about it daily! I think about the weight of my decision I have to make and how it would affect each and every one of my pack members. I'm doing it this way because of them, because I love them and want to be a good Luna to them." I closed the distance between us and got into his face. "You want to talk about fair? Have the one person that is supposed to never let you down ever completely betray and hurt you, you don't even know the type of grief. What it feels like to lose a mate, it's like have a part of you ripped away, even though you know he's no good, there is still that bond. And now, I have to find someone to love me and spend the rest of their life with me because I can't do this on my own." I choked down a sob. "That's what's not fair."

My eyes were filled with tears and all I could do was stare into his eyes, I saw my hurt and pain reflected in his gaze and knew he understood. I knew the next thing was happening before it did but I didn't stop it, I didn't want to. He bent his head and sealed his lips over mine, closing the little distance there was between us. The kiss didn't surprise me but what I felt did, it was the same electric sparks that I had felt when Sam had touched me, but my whole body felt alive. A warm, calming sensation flowed thru my body, I felt safe and secure in his arms. In that moment, I knew, I knew I wanted him as my person, my mate. After a few moments he pulled away, his green emerald eyes dilated, I was happy to see I had had an effect on him also.

"Why did you do that?" I whispered. I hadn't wanted to ask and ruin the moment but I had to know.

"I-I don't know, I just couldn't help myself. I just felt sorr-"

"Oh, so you kissed me out of pity?" I interrupted shoving him away softly, hurt that he had kissed me out of pity.

"No Renee, wait!" He reached out and grabbed my hand. "I didn't mean it to sound like that, I do feel sorry that you had to experience what you did, I would feel that way if it were anyone. But you do not have my pity, you are a strong and confident woman who has picked herself up from a tragic event that would cripple a lot of people."