If I Ain't Got You

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Time will bring the real end of our trial
One day they'll be no remnants
No trace, no residual feelings within ya
One day you won't remember me
Your face will be the reason I smile
But I will not see what I cannot have forever
I'll always love ya, I hope you feel the same
Oh you played me dirty, your game was so bad
You toyed with my affliction
Had to fill out my prescription
Found the remedy, I had to set you free
Away from me
To see clearly the way that love can be
When you are not with me
I had to leave, I have to live
I had to lead, I had to live
If I can't have you, let love set you free
To fly your pretty wings around
Pretty wings, your pretty wings
Your pretty wings, pretty wings around
: Pretty Wings by Maxwell

                   Kyren P.O.V.

             "We didn't make forever, but I will always love you." I smiled. This song reminded me of Laysia. Well all of my friends honestly. It's hard to say goodbye. It's hard being without the people I've been with damn near my whole life, then the first girl I ever loved. I just let her go. But it's what's best.

          "Every man. Has his own special dream. And that dream's just about to come true. Life's not as bad as it may seem. If you open your eyes to what's in front of you."

          "Curtis you dirty bastard," I shook my head. I rewind the movie to Jennifer Hudson arguing with everybody. I feel your pain Jennifer. I feel you girl. Everybody ganging up on you. You look to your significant other, they want somebody else who happens to be very close to you. They turn your brother against you. You just all alone. Girl. I feel you.

            "And I am telling you, I'm not going. You're the best girl I ever known. There's no way I could ever go. Darling there's no way.  Darling there's no way I'm living without you. I'm staying. I'm staying. And you, and you. You're gonna love meeeeeeeee. You're gonna love me." I leaned back into the couch. Mel, Dre, and Melanie were gone, so here I am singing my butt off. I was going to see my folks today, but I chickened out. I'm scared they ain't gone want me back. I used to be used to my parent's rejection, but now I'm scared.

           "And I am telling you. I'm not going. Even though there are times I showed. They're just no way. There's no way. We're part of the same place. We're part of the same time. We both share the same love. We both have the same mind. And time and time, we shared so much together. Darling there's no way. I'm not waking up tomorrow morning and finding that's there's nobody there." Sometimes you do Jennifer. Sometimes it be because of you. Then Curtis just walked away. Funky bastard. I shook my head, then skipped to when Beyonce dumb ass character finally got some sense.

          "I am alone at a crossroads. I'm not at home in my own home. And I tried and tried. To say what's on my mind. You should have known. Ohh. Now I'm done believing you. You don't know what I'm feeling!" I feel you Beyonce. I'm not at home. I want my mama. I want my daddy. I want my brothers. I want Kyan.

            Why am I relating to these characters so well? Like damn. I'm done with this movie. They got me in my damn feelings. "There's someone here inside. Someone I thought had died so long ago. I'm screaming out for my dreams to be heard." I should have listened. I should've listened to my mom, my friends, my dad, my sisters, my brothers, and most of all. I should have listened to myself. This is all my fault. Thanks Beyonce. You and Jennifer really put it in perspective for me.

           Someone knocked on the door. I got up and opened it. It was Layla. I pulled her into a big hug. "I love you," I told her with tears in my eyes. I closed my eyes letting them fall. "I love you so much and I'm sorry. I'm sooooo sorry. I love you. I love you. I'll never leave you again. Just keep loving me the way you do. I love you."