I curl my hair as best I can, trying not to let the nerves get to me. I'm gonna do it - tonight. I'm going to ask Alice to marry me in front of my family and hers. It's Carlisle and Esme's anniversary dinner/party but they've given me their blessing to do it. I only invited my parents because the girls miss the Cullens and I need to rub it in their face that I was right - that I'm okay.
I look over as Alice zips her black dress up. "You look sexy." I smirk and unplug the curling iron.
"So do you - so perfect." She smirks and wraps her arms around me. I kiss her gently and wrap mine around her neck. "Are you okay? You're shaky." She frowns and feels my forehead.
I push her off gently. "Yes I'm fine."
"Have you eaten...?"
I clench my jaw. "Don't. Don't even suggest that."
She sighs. "I'm sorry, it was stupid. I just... I worry."
I roll my eyes and grab my black heels, storming downstairs. Yes I fucking ate, I'm just about to do the biggest thing in my life and it could go very wrong! Edward watches me with a slight smirk as he puts his cufflinks on. "Everything okay?"
"Shut up you asshole." I snap, sitting down and slipping my heels on.
"She means well."
"She means well." I mimic childishly.
Bella raises her eyebrows as she comes in. "What did I miss...?"
"Your husband's an ass."
I snap and walk away. I wish I had the courage to take some painkillers right now but I'm too scared; I grab a glass of water and lean on the counter as I sip it slowly, trying to calm myself. Carlisle comes in and leans beside me. "You're stronger than your urges."
"I know." I whisper. "But I still miss the feelings I had, the not worrying about the consequence. It's driving me insane, I feel sick, I can't eat... what if this goes wrong?" I whisper.
Carlisle pulls me close and I set the glass down, hugging him tightly. "You know it won't. Because you know she loves you - you just need to have a back up plan but in this case there isn't a need for one. You don't need to be afraid."
"I'm always afraid." I choke on a sob.
He holds me tighter and soothes me, rubbing my back gently. "You don't have to be honey. We've got you. We're here and we are never leaving again."
I nod and try to calm myself, gripping his shirt tightly. I hear heels as someone walks in but freezes at the doorway. "Bails...?"
I sniff and wipe my eyes as I pull away. "Yeah babe?" I smile at Alice.
She's instantly beside me, cupping my face. "What's wrong? Is it what I said? I'm so sorry-"
"Bailey just got a little emotional because I asked her to make a speech." Carlisle covers.
I smile and nod, playing along. "Yeah, I was shocked. Made me feel part of the family, like I used to."
Alice smiles and kisses my head. "You are so adorable. And hormonal."
I shove her playfully and giggle, sending Carlisle a thankful look. I kiss Alice's cheek and grab the keys to the Porsche. "My turn to drive."
"No no nooo." Alice tries to protest as she rushes behind me.
I grin and climb in, adjusting the seat. Alice groans and climbs in the passenger seat. "How do you even know you can handle this car?!"
I bite my lip. "I may have... gone on a little drive... when you were hunting." I say slowly as I back out of the driveway. "Let's get ahead so we can have some fun."
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My Heart Beats For You // Alice Cullen
أدب الهواة*COMPLETED FOR NOW* Bailey Rowe, 16 years old; A little bit of an outcast, distrusted by her family. She finds herself partnered with who her biology teacher thinks can support her most after she lost yet another tutor. Alice Cullen, 103 years old...