New Beginning || JJK

chapter 2 ,,Graduation"

Y/N pov

Yesterday was the prom and it was really boring until HaEun and Hope made me smile...
We danced and I had fun...

Today is our graduation... Mark is going to pick me up again...
Well I'm not in the mood but I have to keep smiling...
I have to put on a fake smile and show him that I'm not hurt..
Well it's all a lie.
I'm hurt.
I'm seriously hurt.
But I love him too much.
I don't want to be alone again.
What nobody know is that I've hurt myself when I found out...
It was too much pain to handle so I though that it's all a dream.
I wanted to wake up but I couldn't.
I never told anyone..

It's 8am the graduation Programm starts at 10am so I need to get ready..
I was getting ready when suddenly my phone started ringing.
I looked at the caller ID and saw that it's HaEun.

,,Hey HaEun"

,,GOOD MORING UNNIEEEE!
Are you ready for our graduation?
I'm so excited!"

,,I was about to get ready.. Mark is going to pick me up later"

,,Oh okay. I will pick up Hope then and we'll see us there. Bye saranghaeeeee"

,

,K.. See you."

I went into the bathroom to get ready and did my daily routine.
I wore a black skinny jeans with a white shirt and some black sneakers
I put on some make up and put my hair into a ponytail.
I checked the clock
,,9 am. I still have an hour left"
I decided to scroll trough my insta.

Time skip

I heard my doorbell.
I opened the door and greeted my boyfriend with a soft peck on his lips. I put on a smile while I was dying inside...
Every time I kiss him I see him kissing another girl...
Damn it hurts

,,Hey babe" Mark greeted
,,Hi can we go now.. I don't want to let HaEun and Hope wait to long..."
I gave him a cute but fake smile
,,sure" he said happily.

I fell asleep during the ride.
It wasn't a long one but I was so tired that my eyeleads just shut close.

,,Baby. We arrived" he waked me up softly.
I opened my eyes and got out of the car.
I saw my two besties waiting for me outside.
,,Unnie" they greeted
,,Hey... can we go inside?" I replied with a sleepy voice.
They gave me a confused gaze and nodded at my question.
We went straight to the hall where our graduation is taking place and took seats for us.

Mark, Jackson and BamBam didn't sit with us.

HaEun's pov

Is everything okay with Y/N?
She seems to have a bad mood...
Did something happen between Mark and her again?
Should I ask her...

,,Y/N are you okay. I'm a little worr-..."
,,I'm fine. You don't have to worry. I'm just tired that's all! she cut off my words by replying in a nervous but also scared voice.

I didn't believe her but gave her a week smile.
If she wants to talk she will.
I know her since kindergarten.
She never wants to bother anyone so she keeps it to herself.
But she's like a sister to me.
She doesn't bother anybody. She should just talk to me.

Hope's pov

I'm worried about Y/N-Unnie..
She seems a bit stressed and she seems to be in a bad mood.
She never wants to talk about her problems that makes me sad because I want to help..
,,U- Unnie..." I stuttered
,,mh?" She mumbled in a curious voice
,,if you.. I mean like if you want to talk I will listen okay...?" I smiled at her. I hope she knows how much i want to be there for her..
She thanked me and nodded...

The principal started calling the names and gave every student their own testemony

Y/N pov

Suddenly the principal called my name and I walked in his direction.
I went up the stage and smiled at my friends. I thanked my teachers and the principal and bowed at them.

I'm so happy that I graduated but I don't know what i want to become.

After all students were called and given their testemony I wanted to go home.
,,Mark can you please drive me home?"
,,NO UNNIE! WE WANT TO GO CELEBRATE AND GET SOME FOOD!" HaEun exclaimed in an extremely happy and high pitched voice...
,,Sorry but you have to go without me. I'm tired and I want to go home" I wasn't in the mood to celebrate...
,,but Babe, please come with us" Mark begged.
I looked at him and my friends with an anoyed look on my face.
Suddenly Hope said something in an low and worried voice
,,please don't skip another meal Y/N..."
,,Mark.. take me home already"

He drove me home.
I said goodbye and went inside.
I went straight into my bedroom, put on my oversized hoodie and scrolled through my insta once again.
I watched some bts videos, listened to their music and hoped that all of this is a dream.

,,UGH WHY ME...WHY AM I SO HURT.. WHY AM I THE ONE WHO IS SUFFERING SO BAD? I can't take this anymore"
I felt tears leaving my eyes and slowly running down my cheeks.
I tried to wipe them away but more tears started to fall down.

I cried for hours..
,,What if life is a bad dream and death is the only thing that can wake us up?"
That was my last thought before I fell asleep...

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Heyyyyy.
Sooo.. I know I'm not that good at writing but I give my best as always.
Stay healthy
Saranghaeyo
~Author-nim