New Beginning || JJK

chapter 8 ,,A bit of happiness?"

Y/N pov
I woke up at the sound of my phone ringing.
,,Y/N CHECK YOUR MAILS" HaEun shouted in excitement.
I stood up and was seriously pissed of.
,,YAH HAEUN DON'T SCREAM. IT'S WHAT THE- IT'S 6am?!" I yelled back.
She chuckled and apologized.
I check my mails and my jaw dropped. An E-Mail from the University..
I opened the mail and started jumping in happiness.
,,HAEUN THEY ACCEPTED ME!"
,,OML UNNIE ME AND HOPE TOO!"
We were really excited but i was still a little mad that she waked me up so I hung up and got back to bed. I mean it's Saturday... I want to sleep.

3h later I woke up because of my phone again.
I realized that Mark was calling me.
I picked up..
Aish.. what does everybody want from me today?
,,Good morning Babe.." he greeted me with a sweet and sleepily voice. I greeted him back and asked him what the matter is.
,,Oh i wanted to ask, if you're fine?" He asked me.
I smiled and answered.
,, Yes I'm totally fine. They accepted us at the university  We'll start there in a week or two."
He got silent...
Really silent
Suddenly he exclaimed in an extremely happy and high pitched voice :,,Babe I'm so happy for you. Let's go on a date to celebrate!"
,,that would be amazing" I replied still smiling..
To be honest I couldn't stop smiling because this day started wonderful...
Maybe i will find my happiness again...
,,Y/N? I'm picking you up at 12... So get ready" he chuckled and hung up.
I got up to take a shower and get ready.

Time skip
I heard my doorbell and opend the door.
Mark froze and I looked confused at him.
He came closer and kissed me.
I was kind of shocked because I didn't see that coming.
I kissed him back hoping that my feelings are going to come back.... I mean I don't feel anything when he kisses me but why? I-i love him... right?
I pulled away and saw him smiling.
,, is everything okay?" I asked while laughing.
He nodded and replied
,,I just missed you. Let's go"

After a while we went to the park where we had our first date.
Suddenly the tention between us got awkward...
He looked at me with a lot of pain and his eyes started getting watery.
I was a little worried.
,,Mark? Are you fine? What's wr-"
He cut of my words by smashing his lips on mine.
I didn't kiss back  because I was kind of confused.
What is happening with him.
I pulled away once again seeing him crying...
He hugged me and I said that everything would be okay.
,,Babe. I'm sorry for everything.  I'm so glad to have you... I was about to lose you.. but you didn't give up on me. I love you so much!"
He took my hand in his and starred straight into my eyes.
I smiled and looked at him.
,,I..I love you too"
Wait... Y/N are you sure about that...
,,I'm just so happy that you're fine and that you're going to do what you love. You can study dance and still stay by my side. Because the university is in LA."
His eyes sparkled at his own words I didn't know what to say, so I just smiled and nodded.

This can't go on for too long...
Maybe HaEun is right...
Maybe I should break up because he hurts me...
I don't even know if I love him...
I'm just confused...
I should think about it before doing it for real...

,,Mark, let's go home it's getting cold..." I said in a cute way.
,,Everything for my princess, let's head home baby.."
I slightly flinched at the words "princess" and "baby" I don't know why... I'm just so confused.
I smiled and he locked his hand with mine..

When we arrived at my home I asked him if he wanted to watch a movie and he agreed.
We started watching "Infinity war" because I just love Marvel...
I drifted to sleep in his warm embrace.

Mark's pov
Y/N fell asleep while watching the movie.
She looked so peaceful and angelic while sleeping.
I stroked her cheeks and looked at her beautiful futures.
Damn I love this girl so much.
I will never risk to lose her again.
She's my everything.
Suddenly I notices tears streming down her closed eyes.
M-maybe she has caught a cold and she's freezing.
I covered her with a blanked and cuddled a bit with her.
I kissed her forehead and noticed how my eyelids got heavier...

Y/N pov
I woke up next to Mark and noticed him sleeping and cuddling with me...
One day I will find my happiness bit probably not with him...
Mianhae Mark..
I laid back again, noticed how tears ran down my cheeks and fell a sleep once again..

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Heyyyy.
I hope you're doing fine.
Sorry for not uploading lately I was a bit stressed and I'll so I couldn't upload.
I just want to thank the readers for well reading my Ff...
Keep smiling and stay healthy.
Fighting!
Saranghaeyo
~ Author-nim