01.07.2016
,,She smiled with desperate eyes and fear in her gaze
She hurt herself because of the demons in her head
She tried to kill the demons but ended killing herself..
She screamed for help with her silence but smiled in pain,,
why is everything so heavy?
Why does it hurt so much?
save me from myself, even though i thought he already saved me..
i was so wrong...
The memories are flying through my mind and it hurts..
A year has passed and your actions are still stuck in my head.
It kind of feels like my soul is dead but my body is somehow alife?
i'm trying to hide it...
trying to avoid this strong and painful feeling...
but it's getting worse and difficult...
It's hard... Why does my heart hurt so much while writing this note?
The same routine every day...
Smiling outside...
breaking inside...
There are things i said i would never do...
There are fears that i cant believe have come true..
My soul became so sick and little.. it's almost to late..
And myself..
I have grown too weak to hate...
I'm trying to avoid what the stupid voice is telling me..
but its literally yelling at me...
You don't have to worry though..
i am destroying me... NOT the voice...
I am the problem...
It's my fault like always..
i did this to myself...
I thought that if you can fake a smile you could survive...
I don't know why i keep writing these notes...
because in the end...
it's just another note they will read when i'm gone...
just another of these notes and feelings i've kept for years...
~Y\N
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