New Beginning || JJK

Chapter 5 ,,Voices"

Y/N pov
Is it true what they tell you?
Should you listen to them?
The voices in your head are telling you a lot but is it true?
Are they honest to you?
Maybe or maybe not who knows.
You should try to break free from the voices in your head….

I woke up in the middle of the night I checked my clock and saw that it's 3am…
I realized that I’m still in the hospital.
Today is the day where they let me go home.
Mark is bringing me home today…
Well… Mark…
I don't really know what to do…
Maybe the voices in my head are overreacting… they are telling me that he doesn't care about me and that the pain will never fade away…
But I need to keep fighting for my two Dongsaengs…
The voices are probably lying because he does care about me and he loves me…
H-he loves me right?...
With my head filled with thoughts and voices I drifted to sleep.

HaEun's pov
My alarm clock waked me up this morning at 8am. Today is the day where unnie is finally allowed to go home…
I’m wondering how she feels and what exactly happend?
I should write Mark a message and ask when he's going to pick her up.

,,Hey Mark. When are you going to pick Y/N up?”

,,I don't know maybe around 12pm?”

,,Okay. I'm going to visit her. So she doesn't feel lonely…”

I went into the bathroom and took a shower. I put on some clothes and did my makeup.
I got myself ready and drove to the hospital.
I thought I would be to early but when I checked the clock I saw that it's already 10am.
I didn't want her to be alone.
I knocked on the door and politely woke her up.
,,Unnie, wake up… we need you to get ready…”
,,Oh hey HaEun what are you doing here” she smiled at me and tried to keep her eyes open.
,, Mark is picking you up at 12 so we need to get yourself ready. I don't want you to be alone.”
She looked at me in a thankful way and hugged me.
,,Aish HaEun-ssi you are so cute!”
I giggled and helped her to get up.
We got her ready and talked a bit.

,,Unnie… what about the university?  We should really apply for it…” I told her in a curious tone.
,,Yes we should. Let's call today” she exclaimed to tell me that we shouldn't worry to much.

Time skip 12pm

Y/N pov
Where is Mark?
He wanted to pick me up.
I shouldn't worry to much.
He's probably on his way… right?
,,Y/N he’s probably in a traffic jam. We should wait okay.. don't worry!” HaEun told me calming me down.
I sighted and nodded.
We talked about the accident but we both don't know that happend. Or who could have hit me with the car…
After half an hour we still waited for Mark.
,,HaEun.. maybe he forgot. We should go home…” I said with a disappointed look.
,,No. I will write him a massage.” HaEun was angry… really angry…

HaEun's pov
,,Mark, where are you?”
,,Mark?!”
,,Hello? Are you there???”
,,Mark Tuan?”
,,ugh I will take her home.”

I sighted at disappointment and a tint of angryness.
I gave Y/N a little smile and told her that I'll drive her home.
,,Let's go Y/N…”
She nodded and a little tear left her eye…

Y/N pov
HaEun is going to bring me home because Mark isn't answering.
It was already 13pm when we left the hospital.
I arrived at home and HaEun decided to stay with me. She wanted to control if everything is fine.
She's such a good friend…
,,Unnie i know you aren't that fine as you always say. Please tell me. What's wrong?”
She looked straight into my eyes and I noticed how her beautiful hazel eyes got watery.
I panicked.
,,I-i’m fine...it's just…”
,,Mark?” she interrupted.
I nodded and told her everything.
How I really feel about the cheating…
About him.
The pain.
My struggle of fighting.

When I finished explaining her my true feelings she started sobbing and she hugged me.
,,I'm sorry Y/N. I didn't know.. and-”
I gave her a smile and told her that it's fine
,,Leave him when you feel like this around him. He only hurts you…” she said with a convincing tone in her voice.
,, I don't want to be alone again and I love him” I started while avoiding her eyes.
,,You will never be alone. I will always be by your side unnie”
I weakly smiled at her while the voices in my head were killing me…

Is it true what they say?
Was the question that was stuck in my head...
They tell me that I'm worthless..
I was trying to break free from the voices in my head.

But in the end... the voices were right
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Heyyyy
This was the chapter.
I hope you liked it.
Keep smiling and stay healthy.
Saranghaeyo ♡
~Author-nim