New Beginning || JJK

chapter 27 ,,The light behind your eyes"

Y/N's pov
Everyone kept talking about HaEun and Tae. I'm so glad that they are happy but I see how it's destroying Yoongi.
He says that he's fine but i know he's lying.
Since the day he found out they were dating.
He became a bit depressed.
But Jimin and I are there for him, he doesn't want the others to know what's wrong.
Even though I'm starting to drown again I have to focus on him, Kwan and the debut.
Kwan is in a Medical Center again...
She tried to kill herself again...
I didn't tell anyone..
I don't want them to worry about me...
There are things that are more important than my problems.
Anyways.
Jimin and Yoongi got really close, like they hang out 24/7. After practicing they go upstairs and talk the whole night.
Somehow I shop it but in the other way Yoongi isn't over HaEun yet.

Today we have a day of from the debut stress.
I went to visit Kwan..
I'll tell Yoongi later.
Aish... our family is breaking again.
,,Kwan... Unnie are you in there" I knocked at her rooms door as I heard a light voice say: ,,Come in"
I went inside and saw her laying in her bed while listening to musik.
She looked extremely pale.
Paler than usual.
,,How are you?" I asked while sitting on her bed and took her hand.
,,Fine.. don't worry" she whispered.
She didn't look at me.
She looked outside of the window and admired the blossoms starting to bloom.
It's March and she loves the spring.
,,Kwan..." I felt my eyes getting teary again as she kept watching the spring colors.
,,Please talk to me" she kept ignoring me and hummed to the song ,,The light behind your eyes" from My chemical romance
I started singing the refrain to her

,,If I could be with you tonight
I would sing you to sleep, never let them take the light behind your eyes."

She continued
,,I've failed and lost this fight never fade in the dark, just remember you will always burn as bright.
The light behind your eyes"

She gave me a sweet but hurt little smile as she turned away again..
I didn't care if she kept ignoring me, i wanted to stay with her.
After some hours of not talking and watching the spring bloom, she fell asleep and the doctor told me, that the visit time is over so I pecked her forehead and left.
I took a bus to go to Yoongi...
He should know about Kwan.
As I arrived I hugged him and bursted out in tears.
,,I can't Yoongi" I said still sobbing into his chest.
He asked me what's going on so I told him.
,,Kwan tried to kill herself. She's in a Medical Center again but she doesn't talk anymore. She's silent. I haven't seen her so silent since the day I left."
I could hear his light sobs as he tried to calm me.
,,Does anyone know about this Y/N?"
,,Eomma, SooYun and Haneul" I whispered with a cracking voice.
,,What about jungkook or HaEun?" He asked with a soft and caring voice.
,,No..." I said quiet but loud enough for him to hear it.
I couldn't stop crying but he never stopped hugging me.
,,Show me your Arms Y/N" Yoongi said with a fragile voice as I pulled up my sleeves.
He started crying heavier and I felt so sorry.
,,Why did you do it y/n? Does Jungkook know that?" He questioned while his voice cracked.
,,i broke down when Eomma called me because of Kwan. I couldn't control myself... and no.. he shouldn't"  I whispered again.
He tried to wipe away my tears but they never stopped flowing.
I cried so much that I fell asleep.

Yoongi's pov
Y/N fell asleep as I covered her with a blanked.
I wiped away my tears and went downstairs to see the boys.
I looked annoyed as always because I don't want them to notice that I cried.
,,Hey Hyung" Jungkook greeted as I just replied a bit pissed
,,Hey"
I noticed Jimin talking to Hoseok. They were laughing a lot.
I just looked at them and didn't say anything.
The way Jimins eyes sparkle when he laughs is beautiful.
Wait what?!
,,Yoongi?  Are you okay?" Jimin walked towards me with a hint of worry in his soft voice.
I just nodded and walked into the kitchen again.
,,Did you see Y/N today?" Jungkook asked as I just mumbled a yes.
,,Where is she?" He asked worried while playing with his hands.
,,We talked a bit then she fell asleep. She's tired from practicing. Your girlfriend works hard. Let her sleep" I told him while searching something to eat.
,,Arasseo. Thank you hyung" he replied while I gave him a thumb up and he chuckled.

I sat down at the table as my eyes were focused on the wall but my mind was focused on Jimin...
I couldn't stop thinking about him.
//No we are just friends.. but the way he blushes when we are alone is lovely.
NO YOONGI.  JUST FRIENDS UFFF//
I said mentally.

Your eyes have their own power.
They shine in the darkness.
They reflect the light of your heart.
The light behind your eyes resembles the beautiful shining stars at night.
You light up my world like the moon gives light to the night.
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