Lost Stars

T W E N T Y T H R E E

Lisa P.O.V.

I just finished parking my car in front of the Kim's house, contemplating if I should make an excuse and run or push through with this.

I looked at myself on the mirror. I barely slept last night thinking about today but thank God my eye bags aren't showing. I made a deep sigh before exiting my car. Even if I escape, I would still be too worried about Jennie. 

I knocked on their door and Jisoo opened it with a big smile on her face so I smiled back at her. She looked all dressed up and ready to go. God, she looks gorgeous. "Good morning Jisoo. I hope you're not running late yet." I greeted. She shook her head a little before answering. "No you're just in time. I was just about to call you when you knocked. And good morning to you too, Lisa. Come in."

We both went in and I sat on their couch. She grabbed her bag before approaching me again. "Lisa, there's pancakes on the table for your breakfast. You're free to use our coffee machine. And for lunch, just cook anything you want. Our fridge is newly stocked so you can find ingredients there. Jennie's still asleep but try not to wake her up. She's grumpy as hell when her sleep is cut short." I chuckled at what she said then she added, "I really want to stay and talk to you more but I have to go so I won't be late. Thank you again for doing this Lisa. I'll go home as soon as I can."

"Don't worry Jisoo and take your time. I don't have anything to do today anyway. See you tonight?" I asked.

"Of course I'll see you tonight, you're in my house dummy," she laughed. My day is complete because of her laugh and it barely even started yet. She pecked my cheek and grinned before running towards the door. "Got to go now Lisa, bye!" She shouted. What a cutie. "Take care, Jisoo!" I shouted back.

Aaaaaaand now I'm alone. I went to the table to eat the pancakes Jisoo left for me. They were hands down the best pancakes I've ever tasted. I cleaned up after then decided to check on Jennie. I went to Jisoo's room and slowly opened the door, careful not to wake her up if she's still asleep.

And she was. Cute snores filled the room. I was in a trance yet again as I looked at her face. My feet were subconsciously walking towards her but I snapped from my thoughts and hurriedly went out the room without making any noise. I leaned back on the door while taking heavy breaths to calm myself down.

These feelings I get when I'm with Jennie, I know what it is. 

But I can't have these feelings for Jennie. I can't like two people.

I like Jisoo. Not just because she saved me or anything, I genuinely like her. And she likes me too. Jennie...... I don't even know if she likes me. The past month before the incident was the complete opposite of like. I felt hurt thinking about it.

Also I don't want to hurt Jisoo. She's too precious. I don't want to cause her pain when I can give her happiness.

I'm doing this for Jisoo. Yes. I'm doing this so that Jisoo won't be worried.

I went back to the living room, sat on the couch and turned on the TV. I tried to pay attention to whatever was on it but I slowly drifted off to sleep.

I woke up a little and was about to go back to sleep when I realized that I was not in my own house. I shot up and looked for my phone. 11:30 am. A wave of relief washed over my body knowing that I didn't oversleep that much.

Sensing that Jennie's still asleep, I went to the kitchen to prepare our lunch. I opened the fridge and quickly scanned its contents.

Who am I kidding? I can't cook even if my life depended on it. I laughed at myself while getting my phone to call for delivery.

"Lisa?!" 

I jumped at the voice and turned around to see an equally shocked Jennie. Did Jisoo not tell her about me coming over today? We were staring at each other for a few seconds before I looked away and composed myself.  I turned back to her with a smile on my face. "Good morning Jennie. Jisoo had an important meeting so you're stuck with me today. If you're not comfortable with just us I could—"

"NO!" she cut me off which surprised me again. She calmed herself down before continuing, "I uhhh I mean no it's okay. I was just surprised to see you but it's okay. I feel safer with you here." She said then gave me a gummy smile.

I think my brain stopped working when I saw that gummy smile of hers.

"G-Great what would you like to eat? I was about to order food for our lunch."

"I think Jisoo stocked the fridge so why not cook something instead?"

I scratched my nape and looked at her shyly, "I'm sorry but I can't. I don't know how to cook." I told her shyly, knowing what would happen next.

And I was right.

She began laughing. Loudly. My embarrassment melted as I smiled at her state. "You mean to say that you can beat up huge criminals but can't cook???" She asked while calming down. I swore I saw a tear on her eye because of too much laughter. I crossed my arms and huffed, "Hey I tried, okay? It always ended up burnt or tasteless so I gave up." I put up a fake angry face which immediately melted when she smiled at me. "Don't worry, I can always cook for you. Go sit on the couch while I cook our lunch." She said then proceeded to the fridge.

After she finished cooking, we ate together and can I just say that it was the best meal I ever ate? IT WAS HEAVENLY. She cooked kimchi fried rice and gamjatang which are now undeniably my favorites. I cleaned up afterwards and went to the living room where she was sitting on the couch, watching something on Netflix. When I got nearer I noticed that she was actually just staring at the tv screen with a frown on her face. She is still cute with the frown but I don't want her to frown.

I want to see her smile. Always. And I feel like I'd do anything to make her smile.

I sat on the couch and admired her side profile before having the strength to speak, "Is there something wrong, Jennie?"

She looked at me and I got lost in her eyes. Her eyes felt blank and lifeless. Why Jennie? Tell me. Please.

She sighed then spoke, "Sorry Lisa. It's just that... I feel so empty being in the house but at the same time I'm still too scared to go out. I don't know what I want and I don't know what to do anymore." Her voice was so small and shaky. She looked like she was about to cry. I don't know what came over me but my body moved on its own and hugged her. I felt her stiffen at the contact but after a few seconds she hugged back, buried her face on my shoulder and sobbed. I hugged her tighter to comfort her as she cried harder. No words was spoken as none was needed. I just let her pour out her emotions into the hug, letting her know that I was there for her.

She was crying for about 10 minutes before I felt her slowly calming down. A few more minutes and she broke the hug then looked at me. I wiped the last few tears that fell. "Do you feel better now?" I asked her softly. She nodded and took a deep breath. She then gave me a small smile. "Yes Lisa. Thank you for being here. For being with me."

"Great! Because I was going thinking you can come with me. There somewhere I need to go."

She looked confused and a little scared so I held her hand and intertwined our fingers. "Trust me, okay?"

"Okay, Lisa. I'll go with you." She said while giving me a full gummy smile.

This woman will be the end of me.