Lost Stars

S E V E N T E E N

Jennie P.O.V.

It has been a month.

It's been a month since Lisa and I had breakfast and we haven't gone out since. Don't get me wrong. I wanted to hang out with her. I wanted us to grow closer. I wanted us to be something.... more.

But I can't face her knowing I needed to lie to her face when she asks about the surgery. I try to keep in touch with her through texts but once the conversations get deeper, I escape in fear of my growing need of seeing her again.

I sighed for the nth time while having my lunch at the hospital's cafeteria. Jisoo is out for lunch so I'm here alone until-

"Why the long face, Dr. Kim?" Dr. Jeon asked while sitting in front of me.

I sighed. "I'm just tired, Kookie."

"Whoa then you're really not okay if you're calling me by my nickname which you almost never do." He said and I mentally facepalmed knowing I slipped up. It's true though, Jungkook and I were friends way back med school and I only called him by his nickname when I'm really bothered and he knows that fact. I sighed again.

"Hey Kookie, what if you had a person you like and you want to be close with but there's something holding you back, like a promise to someone else or something, what would you do?" I asked him sincerely. He looked taken aback for a bit then looked at me straight in the eyes. "Jen, is this 'thing' that's holding you back a matter of life and death?" He asked me with all seriousness in his voice.

"No."

"Would it bring any kind of harm to anyone you know?"

"No."

"Does this person know about that 'thing' that is holding you back?"

"No."

His gaze softened and his lips formed a gentler smile. "Then I think you should go for it, Jen. We're doctors. We both know how a person's life can turn for the worse in just a matter of seconds. I'd rather regret something I did than regret something I didn't do, don't you agree?"

I thought about it for a bit but then I remembered Lisa's smile. I can never forget her bright smile and how I'd like to see that smile everyday.

Oh God. I'm so stupid. I've wasted so much time. I shouldn't have thought too much about what Jisoo asked because we could talk about other things. Oh my God. We could've been closer by now. I felt my heart beat faster thinking about her. I looked at Jungkook and give him a grateful smile. "You don't know how much you've helped me today. Thanks Kookie but I have to go now."

"No problem, Jennie. Just make sure I meet this person someday." He said while I stood up. I just waved at him and went out immediately. My shift's over hours ago so I can leave the hospital already. I could meet up with Lisa after her work hours. We could have dinner. Wow why am I this excited over meeting her. Calm down, my heart.

I'm outside of the hospital and was about to text Lisa when I saw her car pull up at the drop off zone. Well, I thought it was her car but I'm not yet sure so I kept my phone and observed for a bit. When I saw her get out of the car, I breathed a sigh of relief and walked to her. I couldn't contain my smile while I was getting closer but it dropped almost immediately when Lisa opened the passenger door of her car. She was with someone?? I hid behind a pillar hoping she didn't see me. I waited for a few minutes before looking back carefully to see if she was gone.

My heart dropped at the sight.

I saw Jisoo kiss her on the cheek then smiling sweetly before dashing towards the hospital.

Now everything made sense, why Jisoo didn't want Lisa to know. I looked at Lisa again and saw her touching her cheek, not yet recovering from what happened.

They look happy.

I walked away trying to contain the pain in my heart.

I can't be closer with her now. I can't let these feelings grow.

I can't hurt my sister's feelings.