Ash x Eiji (one shots, Including Smut)

Until its gone

(Warning, if you don't like anything sad you might want to skip the chapter)

PLOT- Ash thinks Eiji is dead and he is losing his self because of it, he can't handle the thought of it after losing Shorter, thinking he lost Ejij is sending him over the edge, not being able to think clearly and logically, he's going crazy like a hurt caged animal.

------

Ash POV
I lay in my bed, I woke up suddenly to my empty hotel room, my thoughts mix with my nightmares, when I'm awake and when I'm sleeping, it's been just me here for three long damned days, I spent four months searching and searching and searching for Eiji, he's not dead, I can't accept it, I wont ever Accept it! I will find him and bring him here by my side where he is safe.. Where I can protect him.

I have bones and Alex out looking for him with a few others, Sing agreed to help search for Eiji, I've been working with every resource I can, I even talked Cain into helping me out, he's searching as well.

I get up and stare at the ground, I'm shaky on my legs, I'll manage it but I'm not sure that I want to, I haven't been doing to good, if I wasn't so bad I'd still be searching with everyone, I've been eating left over food Eiji made and once I ran out of it I just gave up on eating much.. I miss him so much, he kept me stable and I didn't even notice how much I need him, I've been moping, I want to be with him, would I be able to meet him in heaven?

I would do anything to get closer to him "Hah, as if they'd let me through the gates" I say with a cold laugh, I just flop back down on the bed and stare up at the ceiling.

A sad smile goes across my face, not even a little happiness has been in my life since Eiji disappeared, I take a deep breath looking over at the bed that used to be Eijis, no, it's still his, he will come back, I'll find him and he will be safe again.

I hear a knock at the door and I grumble quickly looking at the door "come in" I say then I hear a sigh and the door opens, when I see Max I roll my eyes, he's been telling me to give up, I don't care about his 'live your own life' talk, I need to find Eiji.

He shuts the door walking over and looking at me "you need to know something Ash" he says seriously and I raise a brow and sit up, I'm wearing pants and a tank top, I haven't been caring about anything but finding Eiji, I know it's not healthy but at this point I couldnt care less.

Max sits on the edge of the bed, he doesn't make eye contact with me, that's a bad sign, I feel dread rise in me and I get angry wanting him to just tell me already "what is it!?" I should and he sighs "we might know where Eiji is.." He says and I glare, I don't believe him, I know the old man just wants what is best but I don't see how lying would help me "explain" I say and he looks at me "Lee.. When we looked into his where abouts after he was ran out of the city he has completely disappeared, Cain sent five of his guys to check out the last sighted areas but only one came back" he says and I get up.

I keep making the mistake of letting that guy live, if he's the one who took Eiji I will be the one to pull the trigger to his head.

I stretch and Max stands up "what do you think you are doing? You're weak right now, just stay and relax and let us handle it" he says and I shake my head "no, I can do it" I say and Max sighs "he threatened to kill Eiji if we go in there" he says and my eyes widen "you've known about this longer then a day haven't you?" I ask anger filling me.

Max nods sighing "Ash, you aren't in the condition to save him and If you try one of you will end up dead" he says and I glare "yeah, Lee will, now tell me, how long.?" I ask and Max looks away "How, long?" I ask again angry.

Finally he decides to answer me after a long silence "for three weeks" he says and I grab a jacket and leave the room, Max hurries after me, he should have told me sooner, he has known for three fucking weeks!!

I grab a phone and call Cain, it's time to bring Eiji home.

((hope you liked this oneshot! If you did please leave a like , thank you for reading it! Sorry that it was slightly sad)