fake love ; shawmila ✅

chapter 4

Shawn's POV

{present day}

"You did what?!" I shouted.
"I wanted to tell you first but my management was forcing me to come up with a decision and I crumbled under all the pressure. I said yes and I'm sorry Shawn."

I started walking up and down the hallway and running a hand through my hair.
"I thought this went both ways Camila. You were supposed to say no!"
"Shawn I know and I will say I'm sorry again but it's not that bad. We have done this thing before and look at us now, we're still friends. I dont see why this is such a big deal to you. Do you just hate me?"
"What?" I turned around to face her.

My tone terrified her, I could tell, but I was too angry to control my emotions.

"Hate you? Camila we've been friends for years now and you still think I hate you? This is a very big deal, don't you understand that? What if our managements tell us to cut off all contact after this fake dating thing is over? What if it gets so weird between us that we refuse to see each other's faces? What if it ends up like last time? I can't handle that Camila. I won't be able to do that. Is it that easy for you to just throw our friendship out of the window just because it will give you a bit more attention? I knew you were fucking selfish. I knew it." I stormed out of there and left the venue without another word.

I can't fucking believe she would yes to that. I know it is just a fake relationship but I've been there before and all it did was break my heart, being friends with her just broke my heart everyday. It was difficult ignoring my feelings about her but I did love her. I did, and I can't pretend to date her with no emotions attached to it. But she wouldn't feel the hurt I feel, cause she doesn't love me. I'm a friend to her and that's all I'll ever be.

I reached my hotel room and landed straight on the bed. I could feel the tears brimming up to my eyes but I didn't want to cry.

I got a message from Andrew, my manager saying "Camila said yes so I think you'll have to go for it. You can't really say no now. It's not such a big deal Shawn. You need just enough PDA to keep the people talking. It will help clear the gay rumours and people wouldn't be too bored of you. You do know that a guy is ten times more attractive when he isn't single? Anyways we will have a meeting tomorrow with Camila and her team and we'll discuss everything. I'll text you the details later."

I dropped the phone on the bed in frustration and fell back to bed again. I stared at the empty ceiling and felt myself sinking into this deep hole.

{3 years ago}

"Wait wait wait. What's happening here?" Ben asked me as soon as he saw me and Camila walking up to them. We never hung out together so it was not surprising to see them that shocked.
"Well we have news for you." I said draping my hand over Camila's shoulder. She smiled.

We were pretty great actors.

"Wait!" Ben stared at us in awe. "You aren't serious. How? When? What? This doesn't make any sense. I thought you hated each other."
"We did." Camila said, squeezing my hand that was on her shoulder. "But stuff happens I guess."

Simon got up from his seat and started gaping at us like a frog. "You mean you guys are together now?"
"Yes. I know it's weird but-"
"When did this happen? I'm so confused." Simon spoke.
"Get used to it." Camila said and sat down. I followed too.