fake love ; shawmila ✅

chapter 7

Camila's POV

{present day}

I threw my hands in exasperation and went back into my hotel room. I fell on the couch with my head in my hands.

I really fucking hate Shawn Mendes. He goes and fucks over my feelings and calls me out for hurting his? I never wanted to be in love with him and I thought he didn't like me either when he straight up rejected me in my face but he thinks I'm the heartbreaker. What does he even mean by that?

"Camila you do know you've signed a contract right?" Stacy asked me, while staring down at me with her hands on her hips.
"Stacy just don't! Okay? Did you see how he shouted at me? Stacy he hates me and I do too, we can't pretend to be together when in reality we're at each other's throats all the damn time."

"You should have thought about that before signing that contract! You cannot go back now."
"It isn't my fucking fault that he walked out like that! Don't blame it all on me. I was ready to go when he just started being rude to me!"

"Camila I've had it with your excuses. I cannot help you now, maybe if you hadn't signed that contract..."
"Stop mentioning the contract that you pushed me to sign, over and over again and leave me the fuck alone!" I quickly bolted up from the couch and pointed towards the door, asking her to leave.

She stared at me with plain annoyance and then walked out the room, slamming the door behind her as she went. I fell back on the couch and started bawling my eyes out.

I don't know how this is all my fault. I don't know how Shawn keeps blaming it all on me. We had done this before and I was the one that got hurt, not him. He was happy with his girlfriend. Maybe I shouldn't have ever confronted my feelings to him. Maybe I should've just kept it to myself.

I needed to see someone and talk to them. I'd call Shawn in situations like these, but this time he's the one at the root of the problem.

I picked up my phone and scrolled through my contacts. The only name that caught my attention was the contact 'Shawnito'.

I'm really doing this.

C : Shawn just tell me what the fuck your real problem is
C : if you're mad at me for signing the contract I already told you, I was under a lot of pressure. And we have fake dated before and it wasn't that big a deal before, then why is it now?

S : don't fucking talk to me ever again

C : Shawn you can't keep avoiding the real topic and ask me to just shut up
C : Act like an adult

He didn't reply back. I kept thinking back to the argument we had in the hallway.

I know I was not supposed to fall in love with him when we were fake dating but I did. I can't control my feelings. But what does he mean by ''make me feel things''? Did Shawn like me back then? Then why did he get back with Nicole? I had so many questions but no one to answer them.

{3 years ago}

After fifteen minutes or so, the couple came back down from the washroom. I knew exactly what had happened as I watched them smiling, and visually just being all flirty. To my surprise, Shawn came and sat back down beside me, drapping a hand around me.