Curious

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"You have to believe that I never meant to hurt you Adrianna. That wasn't what it looked like." He says.

"I saw it with my own eyes, Juan!" I semi shout at him. "I know what I saw."

He walks closer to me which causes me to take one step back. "Please Adrianna, please. You have to let me explain."

"I am letting you explain! Go. Give me your little bullshit excuse as to why you kissed that gir- your ex!" now, I shout.

"Can you please just listen? No interruptions?" he asks in frustration.

I walk to my couch and take a seat, "Fine. Go ahead."

He takes a seat across from me, "That night when we FaceTimed I told you I had zero plans for the rest of the night. I was telling the truth. Right after we hung up I got a phone call. It was my ex. She called me asking if we could meet at some restaurant. I said no but she insisted saying that she had something important to tell me. Considering I hadn't spoken to her in a long time, I thought it was important so I finally agreed." I listen closely.

"Is this the ex you told me about?" I ask.

"Yes. I haven't spoken to her since we broke up and that was like four years ago! Anyway, I met with her. Her brother died, Adrianna. I was really close with him and she felt like she needed to let me know. In person." my heart sinks even at the thought of losing one of my brothers.

"We talked for a few hours. She asked if I was single and I, obviously said no. Right before we said goodbye she just grabbed me and kissed me. You need to know that I didn't initiate anything. I made it a thousand percent clear that I had a girlfriend. A girlfriend that I love so, so much." he stands up and walks over to where i'm seated, across from him.

He kneels down so that he's right in between my legs. "I love you so much Adrianna." he grabs both of my hands and kisses them gently, "I pushed her away from me and told her again that I had a girlfriend and that she shouldn't have done that. She had just lost a brother, I didn't want to make her feel like complete shit so I let it slide. I don't know what's going on in her head right now. So I just left. Please don't let our relationship go because of one absolutely meaningless kiss."

Pleading he cups my face, "Yes, she's an ex. And yes, we kissed but that kiss meant nothing to me."

I look down at him with tears filling my eyes, "You have no idea how fucking stupid I looked during that interview. I had to pretend that I one hundred and ten percent trusted you when in reality I had no idea what to think. You made me look stupid!" I can feel the anger bubbling up inside of me.

He nods, "I know, I know baby." he whispers, "And I am so sorry you had to deal with that. The only thing on my mind after that kiss was you. And how horrible it would make you feel once I told you."

"If I hadn't found out through that interview would you have told me?" I ask, still trying to keep my composure.

"Yes. Yes, because I had nothing to hide! That kiss meant nothing. Will you please forgive me Adrianna?" he begs.

I stand up quickly, almost knocking him over. "I-I can't think right now Juan." I begin pacing around my living room. "I can't just forget this and pretend like it never happened. This has been one of the most painful experiences i've ever dealt with. And it's only been twenty-four hours!" I shake my head, "I don't know if I can forgive all the pain you've caused me."

He's immediately right in front of me, "No, no. Don't say that Adrianna. I love you so much. I can't just let you end things like this. Look, even meeting with her was a mistake. I shouldn't have done it. The point is, I don't want her. I want you. That kiss, did nothing for me. This," he gestures between the two of us before grabbing my face and locking our lips together passionately. I quickly grab his shoulder and push him away, "this does something for me." he rests his forehead against mine before letting out a shaky breath, "Por favor, no termines esta relación increíble que tenemos. Te amo tanto." his voice breaks at the end of his sentence.
(Please, don't end this incredible thing we have. I love you so much.)